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a little poem i just thought up: Everyone laughing. Everyone taunting. No one listening... Some one help me. You say you dont mean to... But do you REALLY mean it? You say your sorry... But ARE you? I say im okay... But AM i?? No. No im not. Take me seriously for once. Listen to what i have to say. "oh shut up, get over it...move on with your day!" Sometimes i cant. Sometimes i dont want to. Sometimes i want to sulk all day, And never get up... Never move a muscle. Just lay in my bed and think of the hurt. Beause forgetting about it all... doesnt ALWAYS work. So let me cry. Let me sulk. Its not hurting you, So why would you give a fuck?

aaww thats so cute, i love that.

haha thank youuuu

cheesey little sucky song i just typed up and thought of a second ago: Behind closed dooors, I fall to the flooor, you bring me doowwn. You tell me everything thats wrong with meee... that i already know. I aint stupid, i know im fucked up. But i wont let that ruin my meee, Because you are. In front of everyoonne, You seem so kind. Your killing my miiind. Everyday when its time to go hooome... I DONT WANNA GOOO!... AND YOU KNOOWW! That behind closed dooors, I fall to the flooor, you bring me doowwn. You tell me everything thats wrong with meee... that i already know. I aint stupid, i know im fucked up. But i wont let that ruin my meee, Because you are. Why dont you listen to me? HEAR ME OUT! i've got something to saayy. You think that you can bring me now? NOOOO! YOOUURR NOT GUNNA RUIN MY DAY. But eventuaallyyy. That behind closed dooors, I fall to the flooor, you bring me doowwn. You tell me everything thats wrong with meee... that i already know. I aint stupid, i know im fucked up. But i wont let that ruin my meee, Because you are. Gotta move on, Move on with my liiife... (gotta move on, move on, OH OH) Gotta move on, Move on with my liiife... (GOTTA MOVE ON, MOVE ON OOOHH.) ...HELL YEAH! Behind closed dooors, I fall to the flooor, you bring me doowwn. You tell me everything thats wrong with me... that i already know. I aint stupid, i know im fucked up. But i wont let that ruin my meee, Because you are. Gotta move on, Move on with my liiife... (gotta move on, move on, oh oh) (repeat till fades)

last week my friend told me thatshe was talkin to this dude. and out of now ehre shes like GOD I LOOVE PARAMORE. and he was liek "ppsshh.paramore SUCKS there just an emo version of avril" .....and my friend and that dude have no clue of the references of hayley and avril over the years hahaa soo i found that ironic. but anyway.....ive neverrr seen then as "emo", if anything there pop punk...thats what ive always seen them as.

quick little poem i just wrote. i think its short and sweet haha Why am i so paraniod? Why am i so worried about this? Its something that i could avoid... but at my own risk. I think you hate me, I think i annoy you. I could be wrong, but id like for you to be in my shoes. To see what you do to me everyday. To feel the pain i feel when i see you, To be me and see how it feels for the one you love to ignore you... It hurts so bad to feel that way. But maybe im just paraniod, And shouldnt worry about this, 'Cuz maybe one day, that thing i could'nt avoid... Might turn around and come my way... With one simple kiss.

oh its okay haha i dont mind what you call it, i just want you to like it hah

thankss haha its a poem, not a song though. i rarley write songs.

im right there. but you dont see me. should i even dare? to try and impress you so you could see, im falling for you. cant you see? ...is it ment to be? you dont even know me well. i dont even know you well. cant you tell im falling for you? this cant be true... but it is. is it? Yes. everytime i see you my heart starts pacing... my palms get sweaty, my mind starts racing. why is this happening? you dont like me, you dont know me... im just your friend. just your friend-girl, not your girlfriend... ...i dont even wanna be your girlfriend. i just want you to see and feel what i feel. so maybe we could work this out, and see if its something real... something that would work out and not disappear. you making me fear you. for once will you be sincere? and actually sit down and talk to me? or something close to that. something down that path... i dont know how to tell you... i dont WANT to tell you... you'd laugh your ass off... and start hating me and thatd be the end of that part, of my life. but i dont want it to end. because when i look in to your eyes, i see your heart and your soul... and its telling me "yes" but MY mind, is saying no. am i reading you wrong? i bet i am. just because your nice to me doesnt mean you'll mend, my broken heart. but something inside tells me you can fix it... i just wanna figure this all out, and stop waiting for this shit, to happen. ...because ive had way too many regrets in my life already. i dont need anymore right now, i just want something in my life to stay steady. so do you like me? ill never know. untill that one day you'll tell me "yes" or "no".

ah that was sweet. that kinda related to what im feeling right now hah i wrote this out of bordom. the last halfof it kinda sucks,cuz i ran out of rhymingness haha why am i so annoyed? why am i so pissed off? is there something im trying to aviod? something im trying to put off? why cant i just live my life. why am i lazy? why am i alone? am i going crazy? am i finally going phsyco? maybe its just me. maybe im doing it to myself. is this how its always gonna be? am i gonna ruin my health? i need someone. anyone. just to listen to me. stop calling me insane! i do have a fucking brain! its just malfunctioning. i want my life back. i want my sanity. it is because of the willpower i lack? is it because im never happy? im gunna stop sulking over it. move on and get over it. yet i still wonder why i feel this way... JUST a bit.

ah thats aweesome. i did that on onepage in a notebook i had in school a few months ago hahaha it took like 3 class periods

can someone make me a thinger with this? haha http://youtube.com/watch?v=pDsyq-4KMc4 3:26-3:28 (i think thats close enough. well whenever the "so your gone, and im haunted" part comes haha) there. fixed it

alrightyy guess im gunna post this here haha i wrote this a few days ago. i was really annoyed andin one of thoes "everyone hates me" moods. so go figure ha What if i died? ...Would you cry and wonder why? ...Would you go to my funeral? ...Would you miss me in general? If yes is to ANY of these... Then show me. Show me you care. Show me that you would miss me, And that you'll always be there. Because if you dont soon... And you wait... It just might be too late. Then you'll have to start over on an blank slate ...Without me. Forever.

id give it a few months. my predictions were end of nov. beginning or dec. it'll be released. but thats just my guess

probally only has time to add like the 1000's of teenies that add him everyday. then he stalks their pages if he has time HAHA

im loving the new cd. alot......maybe a bit too much

past few days ive been really into ATL again. i usually do that like once or twice a month haha

yeah me too. well the 80's thing. not really hair metal though haha.i just picturedzac jeremy and josh having liek hee-uge hair and rocking out. its...actually kinda sweet

just in case somone that can do that for me didnt see it, haha

god i havent been on in likea monthhh. anywaay uh. haha what ive always though it'd be is like...i dunno. all i can see is like. hayley like, singing a like..strobe lights everywhere. thatd be kinda freakin sweet to me haha like close ups of her singing...kinda like the miz biz videoparts of the band but a different concept. im feelin the whole spyness yall were talkin bout too haha

can someone make me a thinger with this? haha http://youtube.com/watch?v=TlRKqaoFc3g 3:26-3:28 (i think thats close enough. well whenever the "and im haunted" part comes haha)

yes! i do haha i dont know why, but when i read it it sounded really sweet. id help you, but all i can think of at the moment are like deressing things haah

dude.......thats, fucking genius. haha seriusly! i LOVE that.

thank youuuu, and thanks ha

uh.....paolo nutini. haa i dont know, it was the 1st thing that came to my head. and now when i think about it..it sounds like it'd be kinda sweet