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yeah this whole thing starting with the fake tumblr post yesterday kind of blindsided me.

this is terrible. paramore will never be the same.

 

i haven't been following them as closely as before... what were the indicators that people are referencing?

this whole summer is just a dream tour and i'm so happy i got to see it. this interview is so cute!!

oh my lord. that was just absolutely fantastic. must download.

^ I feel ya... when I first told one of my (incredibly vain) friends, she responded with "that's cool, as long as you don't fall in love with me." I don't know why they assume that... maybe it's because they're afraid that if you go for them then they'll actually like it

it's so hard to stop thinking about. i totally understand!

yeah maybe i should just go out on saturday and pick up the first girl i see,or finally say yes to the ones who try to hit on me while we're out. hah nah think i'll pass on that. haha good quote!

theres stupid of me to have any hope in this situation tho, it's only hurting me..i can't go around liking someone who's straight. It really really sucks, and i can't stop talking to her coz then she'll know something is up and i don't want that...awkward.

yeah the boy thing was just bad,i know she likes them but i dont like hearing about it haha

 

sounds like a good plan, you'll have to keep me updated on how it goes

yeah we'll both probably get over it sometime (or not in your case if it works out) but i wish i could just snap my fingers and be over her right now haha

 

I wish that was possible too. friendship would be so much easier at this point. someone will come along eventually that will completely blow this girl out of the water. you may not think it's possible now (I honestly don't either), but it'll happen. patience sucks

 

i'll definitely keep you posted on what happens, or what doesn't. it's good to talk out our mutual problems, eh?

She really is though, i could never get a girl like that. Which makes this even worse. But nah she's not superficial. I actually just wanna get over her , but it's kind of hard coz like ive said before she's friends with some of my friends so i'm bound to run into her or hear about her.

I think the worst time was a while back when i was at a party and i called my friend and she was with her.. and when she heard that it was me on the phone she took the phone from my friend so she could talk to me..it was kinda cute lol but then she started talking about guys and how if she didnt find a guy to go home with we might meet up at some club. That really stung, hearing her talk about going home with some dude.

 

Ah i see,well the tension thing seems like a sign to me. If she gets nervous over accidentally touching you there might be something there, i mean if you're just friends why would something like that be awkward?

I can see why you're confused tho, maybe you should try and get something out of her?

 

just sleep with HUNDREDS OF OTHER WOMEN and you'll be fine. haha just kidding... don't do that. I mean yeah, I'd try to get over her too, but don't just give up hope. "there's always hope as long as hilary duff still has a career," (I read that quote yesterday and I can't for the life of me remember who said it). I can understand why the whole guy thing would make you less than pleased... it hasn't yet happened to me but I do dread that day.

 

I'm going to try to get something out of her when we get back to school... start hanging out one-on-one more often, going to more movies, just being chivalrous in general, etc. if nothing comes of it (or she starts dating a guy), then I'll join my school's pathetically small GSA (catholic schools...) and go from there. it'll take awhile but I'll get over it.

 

and so will you.

Nah she's pretty boycrazy all tho i know she's been with a girl when she was younger(she's 27) but she told me that was just something she wanted to try ,curiosity i guess. and even if she did like girls she wouldnt ever go for me,she's way too pretty for me. I kind of hate that she's such a nice person haha and apparently she likes talking to me coz everytime we chat on fb she's the one who keeps the conversation going. and this one time i was at a party with one of my friends whos also friends with her she got all excited when my friend mentioned that he was with me , she was like " OH you're hanging with Sandra,awesome! tell her i said hey and have fun tonight,wish i could be with you guys" and my friend had mentioned other friends of us to but it was only when she heard my name she got excited.. i hate that i read too much into things haha

 

Ohh i see, that can't be easy. But have you gotten any signs that she might like you as more than a friend? or has she mentioned girls in any way?

 

oh, never say someone's "too pretty" for you. that doesn't exist (I would hope this girl isn't too superficial!). keep at it, though... maybe she'll see something in you. some people don't date based on gender, you know? see something you like and just go for it. at the very least, you can get a great friendship out of it.

 

as for my friend and I, we don't talk much about our romantic lives (or lack thereof). she doesn't really mention girls, but I didn't either before I knew I was gay. when we're not at school, we communicate every day over facebook or texting or phone calls (something that neither of us do with any of our other friends, but this could mean anything). most of the signs I've gotten have been pretty inconclusive. the most glaring "signal" that I've noticed is the tension that I feel when we're together. like if we accidentally touch arms or something like that, I can feel her get nervous and pull away (we went to a drive in movie theater together and laid in the trunk of her car to see it; it was pretty cramped and it happened incessantly), but I don't know if she's trying not to lead me on or if she's nervous for the same reason I am, so I've spent the last 10 months or so really, really confused and conflicted.

^ that sucks. but you never know; maybe you can convert her? I have no idea how to get over crushes like that... if I knew the answer I'd tell you!!

 

the girl i'm in love with is my best friend at college (though I'm not entirely sure she's 100% straight given her sparse romantic history). we hang out all of the time and I've seen her 3 times during summer break despite a 4 hour time difference between our houses. the problem is I don't want to make a move because I don't want to make our great relationship weird, but waiting for her to is excruciating since I don't know if anything's actually coming.

^aww it sucks having crushes on people who are taken =/

 

I need to get over my stupid straight-girl crush..

 

as do i.

aw she's so adorably awkward in this video... but she speaks so much truth. more people should listen to that. she has so much common sense.

the show last night was spectacular. i've never seen any concert that was ever that good. i haven't been listening to paramore much lately, but that show made me want to.

^ funny, i was just about to post her.

 

 

oh, and these ladies:

 

 

 

mm... sexy canadians.

 

3 of my favorite people ever.

i fuckin loved it. best movie i've seen all year. the concept was fantastic and very well executed and i thought the acting was amazing as well.

not gonna lie, that's kind of hilarious.

^i wish that too!!

i confess i am a little nervous to drive 4 hours by myself for the first time. hope i don't get horribly lost.

yeah, i love playing god but i think they're doing kind of a bad job choosing singles off this album. hopefully the video is better than careful's was..

happy birthday!

i confess getting a credit card was a very bad idea. i'm more prone to... buy things...

What are you really?

British

[ ] You drink a lot of tea.

[ ] You know what a brolly is.

[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.

[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.

[ ] You use the word “bugger”or the phrase “bloody hell.”

[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.

[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.

[x] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.

[ ] Its football…not soccer.

Total: 2

 

Australian

[ ] You wear flip flops all year.

[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.

[x] You love a backyard barbie.

[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.

[x] You love the beach.

[x] Sometimes you swear without realising.

[x] You’re a sports fanatic.

[x] You are tanned.

[ ] You’re a bit of a bogan.

[ ] You have an australian something

Total: 6

 

Italian

[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.

[x] Your last name ends in a vowel.

[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.

[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.

[x] You know Italian songs.

[x] You have dark hair and dark eye colour.

[x] You speak some Italian.

[x] You are under 5’10”

[x] You know what a Italian horn is

[x] Spaghetti is the best food in the world!

[x] You talk with your hands.

Total: 10

 

Spanish

[ ] You say member instead of Remember.

[ ] You speak Spanish or some.

[x] You like tacos.

[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.

[x] You are dark skinned.

[ ] You know what a Puta is.

[x] You talk fast occasionally.

[ ] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.

[ ] You know what platanos are.

Total: 3

 

Russian

[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.

[x] You get short tempered.

[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.

[ ] You get cold easily.

[ ] Rain is fun for you.

[ ] You get into contests all the time.

[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.

Total: 3

 

Irish

[ ] You think beer is the best.

[ ] You have a bad temper.

[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O’, Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.

[ ] You have blue or green eyes.

[x] You like the colour green.

[ ] You have been to a st. paddy’s day party.

[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.

[ ] You have/had blonde hair.

[x] You have/had freckles.

[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.

Total: 3

 

African American

[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually

[ ] You have nappy hair.

[ ] You like rap.

[ ] You know how to shoot a gun

[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.

[x] You like chicken.

[x] You like watermelon.

[ ] You can dance.

[ ] You can ‘sing’ gospel.

Total: 2

 

Asian

[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.

[ ] You like rice a lot.

[x] You are good at math.

[x] You have played the piano.

[ ] You have family from asia.

[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.

[ ] Most people think you’re chinese.

[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.

[ ] You go to Baulko.

Total: 3

 

German

[x] You like bread.

[ ] You think German Chocolate is good.

[ ] You Speak some German.

[ ] You know what Schnitzel is.

[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.

[x] You went to Pre-school.

[ ] You’re over 5’2

Total: 2

 

 

 

Canadian

[x] You like/play/played hockey.

[ ] You love beer.

[x] You say eh.

[ ] You know what poutine is.

[ ] You speak some french.

[ ] You love Tim Hortons.

[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.

[x] You watch/watched degrassi.

Total: 3

 

American

[ ] You hate foriegners.

[ ] You hate non - Christians.

[x] You’re lazy.

[ ] You are not cultured.

[ ] You hate abortion.

[ ] But love the death penalty.

[ ] You don’t read.

[ ] You shop at walmart.

[x] You think this survey is rather biased.

Total: 2

 

i know i'm italian. duh

my list is totally different now.

 

1. Tegan & Sara

2. Paramore

3. Paper Route

4. Cage The Elephant

5. 30 Seconds To Mars

6. She & Him

7. Angels & Airwaves

8. Blink-182

9. Family Force 5

10. Box Car Racer

thought this was pretty entertaining. found on facebook.

 

STEP ONE:

Spell your name with songs.

 

Call It Off

Hop A Plane

Relief Next To Me

I Know I Know I Know

So Jealous

This Is Everything

Alligator

 

^ All by Tegan & Sara (I did that on purpose.)

 

STEP TWO:

- Name: Christa

- Birth date: 5/29/91

- Nickname: Chris

- Eye Color: Brown

- Hair Color: Brown

- Zodiac Sign: Gemini

 

STEP THREE:

- The shoes you wore today: Sneakers

- Your weaknesses: It depends on how you mean...

- Your fear(s): Death, heights, small spaces, vomit

- Your perfect pizza: Extra sauce, fried eggplant on top

- Goal you’d like to achieve: Work in a music industry or a music-type business

 

STEP FOUR:

- Your best physical feature: I dunno... I would say my hair but my friends at school would say my boobs (they choose to call me Bitchin' Tits on many occasions.)

- Your bedtime: When I'm tired

- Most missed memory: It's really specific

 

STEP FIVE:

This Or That…

- Pepsi or Coke: Gross

- McDonald’s or Burger King: Gross

- Adidas or Nike: Nike

- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton

- Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

 

STEP SIX:

Do You…

- Smoke: No

- Curse: Yes

- Sing: Yes

- Dance: No

- Take a shower everyday: Yes

- Have a crush: Oh yes

- Want to go to college: I go to college

- Like(d) high school: Hated it

- Want to get married: Dunno yet

- Get motion sickness: Not really

- Think you’re a health freak: Nope

- Get along with your parents: Yes

 

STEP SEVEN:

In the past month…

- Gone to the mall: Yes?

- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No

- Eaten Sushi: Yes

- Been on Stage: No

- Gone skating: No

- Made homemade cookies: Yes

- Gone Skinny dipping: No

- Stolen anything: No

 

STEP EIGHT:

Ever…

- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes

- If so, was it mixed company: Yes

- Flashed anyone: No

- Been beaten up: No

- Shoplifted: No

 

STEP NINE:

- Age you hope to be married: Whenever it feels right

- Numbers of Children: Two probably.

- Describe your Dream Wedding: Some outdoor ceremony with just a bit of family and friends

- What country would you most like to visit?: Italy

 

STEP TEN:

In the opposite [or same] sex...

- Best eye color?: Any

- Best hair color?: Red or brown

- Short hair or long hair?: Short

- Height: Doesn't matter

 

 

STEP ELEVEN:

- Number of people I could trust with my life: 3ish

- Number of CDs that I own: Dunno

- Number of tattoos: 0

- Number of piercings: 4

 

Personal Quiz

- Who were you with yesterday? Mom, sister, dad, other sister, brother, stepmom, step-aunt, cousin, grandparents, people I work with

- What woke you up this morning? My sister

- Where are you? Family room

- Is tomorrow going to be a good day? Who knows, I'm working for like 8 hours.

 

THE PAST

- Ever thrown up in public? Yes

- Passed out because of alcohol? No

- What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? Lots of things, particularly my skull.

 

THE FUTURE

- What kind of home would you like? City apartment/loft

- What do you want to be when you grow up? I'd like to be a writer, or work in radio or in music in general

- Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Just starting out my career

 

IN GENERAL

- Do you like candy necklaces? I could do without them

- When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? I don't legit fall over a lot *knock on wood*

- Do you listen to music every day? Yes

- Do you still go trick or treating? Nope

- What was the last thing you ate? Meatloaf

- Are you a fast typer? Yes

- Whats your favorite type of soda? Orange

- Have you ever moved? Like 5 or so times

- Have you ever won an award? Yes

- Are you listening to music right now? Commercials on TV

- How long tiill your birthday? 11 months

- When were you the saddest in your whole life? Hard to say

- What time is it? 8:54 pm

- Do you use ebay to buy or sell? Neither

- Who makes you mad? Lots of things

- Have you ever heard a song written about you? Yes, sadly enough.

 

HONESTY SECTION

- Honestly, whats on your mind? How redundant.

- Honestly, what are you doing right now? This

- Honestly, have you done something bad today? No

- Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? My mom

- Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? Sorta

- Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? Stupidity

- Honestly, do you bite your nails? No

- Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? No

- Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? Yes

- Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? Yes

- Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? Yes

- Honestly, are you in denial? Not anymore

- Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? No

- Honestly, do you like anyone? Yes

- Honestly, does anyone like you? I dunno, I hope so

 

ANGER SECTION

- What do you do when you’re mad? It depends on what made me mad

- What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? Punched the wall

- Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? I dunno

- Do you swear when you’re mad? Yeah

 

CRYING SECTION

- When was the last time you actually cried? I don't remember

- Ever cried yourself to sleep? When I was little

- Do certain songs make you cry? Not really

- What usually makes you cry? Nothing usually makes me cry

 

HAPPY SECTION

- Are you usually a happy person? I think so

- What makes you the happiest? Right now, I'm really diggin' school.

- Do you believe in yourself? Yes

- When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? No, I get awkward.