Red

my story...its so confusing...only three people know it and SP which is gone now.my story...maybe i'll post it later...its not like i was abused raped or anything...but...confusion does crazy things to people lol

Dear Marshall,

youre never gonna get it. And if youre that dense, then you deserve her.

Im sticking with you

cause im made out of glue

anything that you wanna do

im gonna do too

its stuck in my head.......

i REALLY hope i get to go to a BarlowGirl concert this year

Diet coooooooooooke

Fears-Zach Williams

oh my frakin gosh. i LOVE it! love the entire idea, and its all so freakin orignal.

oh and Kiersten, thats like one of my favorites songs in you sig

Dear Caleb,

i cant stand you 98% of the time.

Nick & Nora's Infinite Playlist

i hope senior year doesnt suck

Claustrophobe-Katie Todd

Dear Darwa,

you talk WAY too much:mad:

Ignorance-Paramore

10

9 and 10

Time Goes Away-Rosie Thomas

7

Fears-Zach Williams

WOOTWOOT! if that doesnt count theeeeeeeennnn........Odious that word makes me laugh for soem odd reason

Do you prefer an acuostic set or the original version of a song?

having to dry off with a wet towel:mad:

i dont know whats wrong with me and i hate it. i miss SP. SP was known as Sound Post, the message boards for one of my favroite bands, i was a fan of that band before i even knew about Paramore. So i became a part of SP and it was everything. it was my home. it was the first place i talked about my slef injury, the first place i started talking about me. I made my best freinds on there and for five years i had SP as a family, as my best friends and sisters. And then, in April 2009, the band said they were gonna shut SP down, because they felt like God was telling them to. i just feel like ive lost a part of me. as cliche as it sounds, i really do.

One of my best friends on there, Felicia has stopped e-mailing me. Chris, a girl i used to be friends with at school was also a member on SP and then she and i got in a huge fight and we stopped talking, and im scared she told Felicia some bullshit story about me being a bitch to her and leaving her when she needed me the most. I miss Felicia. She's expecting twins in about a week and i really wanna talk to her.

I suck at emotional and spiritual pain. For nearly four years i would numb myself as soon as i was beginning to feel sad or hurt and now that ive stopped my SI, i just hurt. and i hate it and i dont know what to do with this pain cause i dont get it!

Im confused. im angry. im sad. so sad.

im so tired of always working my ass off for others and trying so hard to be there for them and them either slamming the door in my face or theyre taken away from me. i hate this. i hate this.

Im looking forward to BG's cd Love and War to come out on its new release date:D

Dear Sara...

babe, im always gonna love you and im always gonna be there for you....but just know, when you give up, things dont get any easier or better.

Lord of the Flies and Im re-reading Winter Girls by Laurie Halse Anderson

I was Broken-Rob Pattinson

The Hider-VersaEmerge