Kim_x

no, i didn't get anything and i swear i didn't delete something this time!

blah i hate the new pm system.

fuuuuu- i accidently deleted the convo so if you reply, send a new message then? sorry i'm a total prick today. unf...

I dunno, i still didn't get all this conversation on and off blah tbh in fact i need the message again to read it xD

that's weird i didn't recieve a reply on this one may you send it again?

lly reply to a pm from yesterday? i was just curious cause i didn't get one back anymore so i was kinda unsure whether i accidently deleted one without replying to it =)

you know what, i've made a decision. since the line keeps stucking in my head all the time and i just had a very long talk with my mom, i decided not to get "you built up a world of magic because your real life is tragic" tattooed, but "take a chance and be strong" on my left wrist. i need something that i can look at reminding myself to be optimistic.

btw did you actua...

my mom was like that too at first but now that she gets how i suffer under all this circumstances, she just wants me to get friends that i could really spend time with, doesn't matter how i get them.

the pesimism is coming through again with me i think cause i don't believe i'll ever get the chance to go to london again

aw yeah right haha

we may should go on mailing then huh?

and np jesse williams has like the most catching eyes i've ever seen, eric dane is just...ya mcsexy and justin chambers is so freaking adorable xD

that's a thing i'm proud of. i'm an individual and that's good

i'm so sorry for this massive rant but i've held this back for so long now i'm just glad i can tell you about it. ♥

no it doesn't, that's super legit! this line fits so much to both of us, don't wanna drift into like poetric but i think it kinda connects us somehow. i'm not sure yet, but i wanna get a tattoo telling myself that i need to go on. like i'm thinking about "i love myself and i wanna live" by the blackout but this go line might be good aswell i haven't decided yet

nj or crissy or you, she was also like "whoa there's somebody from england? ask if you can meet up with her when we're in london" and then i had to tell her that you live too far awayfrom london for such a short meeting. that sucked at all

often that it'd be so awesome if i could at least meet up with you, or in general find at least people through the net and then meet up with them and maybe become friends but then i always tell her that all german people i know through the net are very rare at all and kind of nuts and the people i'm kinda close to live too far away like catie in

i totally get what you mean but my massive problem is that really everyone about my age in my surroundings is like that so that i do not even have the chance to find friends to get outta this fucking misery of missed self-confidence. my mom already told me so

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you should! plus there are 3 reasons hot like a mess to watch it haha

aw that sucks! *hug* *gives you a headache pill*

nt :/

aw really? that's so sweet! *hugs* but you know what? i feel quite the same about you too cause you're pretty much the only one i can talk to about everything apart from my mom but you know there are also things you don't wanna discuss with your parents so it's quite good to let it out in the net at least (wow, that sounds so poor, like sick, it even disgusts myse...

they don't have to deal with another ugly stupid prick i dunno i'd just feel uncomfortable taking a picture with them or anything...

but i get what you mean at all! but i honestly don't know how i should make it if my surroundings or any other people in general don't gimme the feeling that i even can make it. i'm all alone that's the point.

sorry for the ra...