Tamika

i know, but its so hard!!! and we are such good friends! like really good friends! we were always togther at school when we could be and ahhh i dont want things to be weird for him! i mean im fine w/ him not liking me, he cant help his feelings, but why cant he tell meeeee! i mean he knows how i feel. and hes just leaving me hanging. he hurts my feelings so much!

hahaha damn! lol. ha cool! yeah, they and the internet are my excape! =]

ha i just cant help it, im very emotional and cant help my feelings! lol. ahhhh well i've left him clues! haha like me and my friend were having a conversation on his comments! (hahahahahahah) and i told her i liked him...in his comments...so im sure he saw it...and i havent talked to him since that happend...but he obviouslly knows and didnt say anything, so idk what to think, and freshman year my sister told him i liked him and he was happy about it, and i act the same... ahhhh idk!!!!!!!!!!

haha did i make you do it?

hahah yeah! but ill be out of highschool before then....and haha well i want to date in high school!!!! lol. ok well this boy i like i have since freshman yeah and i always thought he liked me...i mean i was pretty damn possitive ya know? well this year we got really close and hung out and stuff and ever kissed once! then this summer he just neve rhas time to call me and things are just weird! and he lies to me about calling, and he lied and said he would come over for my birthday and never showed up! he said sorry for that and came to see me the next day, but he didnt have to lie! ok so im really self concious about him because hes like perfect! ya know? and he moved me down in his top 8 (haha i know myspace drama! lol) and put another girl infront of me, and now one of my good friends tells me that they hung out, like me and him hung out, like im not jelous of her, but idk what to think if me does this w/ other girls and it was just normal when i hung out w/ him or if he likes her now. and he called her today for no reason. ahh idk if i miss him or disslike him!

haha im 16 but im lonley! hahaha and well see....ok well do you want to hear about my boy problem? lol.

i should just do that instead of hurting my own self by thinking some guy likes me. =Pi prolly make NO sence! sorry.

some bleached boxers, a sports bra and a white tank. ha PJs :]

oh thats so awesome! glad you had fun! :] ahhh ppl must hate head automatica huh!?! ha i feel so bad! lol. ahhhh adam blond is so weird! hahaha your AVA pictures are so good, i like the lighting they had a lot too!

my feelings are kind of hurt. just ask!

its back!!! well most of it! lol. the parts that matter! lol.

yeah anmyspace wont work AGAIN!!!!!! bitch! whoaaaaaaaaaaaa i just went to the boards and its only General All-American Discussion, Talk About AAR Shows, Meet and Greet and Frequent Post Archive!!!! WTF!!! HAHAHA maybe they are reading everything so they dont want anyone to post so it will be easer??? idk, but i hope they are answering the Q's! kjnvklhbdf

ha you better stop being shy! lol. make friends w/ ppl you work w/, maybe it will make your job funner and go by faster ya know? ha yeah no one really wears converse like everyday like me except my friend brooke! lol. im glad i know her too, shes prolly the only person at my school thats even close to the "same" as me! lol. ha yeah in school i like to be really goofy and just have a good time, and if no one likes it then they arnt worth it.....thats how i like to feel, but i really do care and want ppl to like me! lol.

haha yeah! i need a job, if i had one then i would be able to do that stuff, but i dont! lol. haha why was the new boy in line? lol. ooooo you better get to know him!! lol. i dont like living here, i've been here my whole life and im sick of it, everyone is either ghetto or rich and thats just not me!! no one is the same as me at my school! but i do have page! :] shes in my band, she looves AAR and the same kind of boys and everything, but shes 18 and i feel like im holding her back! and she has a job and stuff, so shes buisy =P but yeah i need to get out of here, seems like the only person i can really have fun lately is my sister and thats just hanging out and watching movies because she 28! lol. haha she looooves hallelujah!! lol.

http://www.allamericanrejects.com/video_joy_ride-large.asp haha that makes me happy!

haha thanks! well i would hang out w/ friends, but i really dont have that group of friends that i hang out w/ all the time, i only have my bestfreiend and we are sooo different, but exactly the same. but all i do w/ her is sit around at her house, and i'd rather be at my house cause she doesnt have a comp and her mom smokes and it just stinks! but yeah, i would totally hang out more often if everything everyone wants to do didnt cost money! [yes im still poor lol] i mean why cant ppl just go for walks or just hang out at target or something!! lol. i really want a bike too! lol. hahaha well atleast im going to the library tomorrow w/ a friend!! lol. thats going to be fun i hope! :] everyone just makes me feel like a loser. i wish things were as fun as they were when i was a kid! thats why i like school, cause it gives me something to do. now i wanna watch a movie w/ my sister! haha we do that a lot! lol.

hahahaha well it just always happens, i dont want to stay up that late...im always like 'im going to go to sleep sooner tonight' then 4 rolls along! hahaha but yeah....idk, i just couldent fall asleet! i hate it! hope i sleep well tonight!! kjcgbjcnfhjnfdh hahaha yeah told you im going crazy! i think i need to get a life and maybe ill feel better! i just dont feel like im getting enough out of my day ya know, all i do is sit around in the house all day! im such a loaner! and its not funny, but i still say lol. =P hahaha well school will start at the end of august for me, but that is sooner than i think! i feel likie my whole summer has been a waist!!!!! i wanna move. far! to a place where theres more ppl like me! i have major problems! i think i need counciling or something. ahhh theres so much more, i just dont want to bore you to death! and i think i like to come online so much cause this is the only place i really feel like i fit in ya know, i mean like i have a lot of friends and they all love me, but ahhh idk. im not happy. wow thats a lot, but theres soo much more going on inside my head! ok sorry, yeah i want a water really bad now!

hahaha im sure i am going crazy! lolololol jdvhgxudhcbvxucv haha haha well....i usually go to bed at like 4/5! lol. but i STILL dont fall asleep! haha i get so mad! lol. i swear i didnt get to sleep till 9 in the morning! yeah, hope it doesnt happen again cause schools going to be starting soon! lol. ahh thats going to be crazy! haha i love bottled water!!! but them asses drank it all!

ha aw good to know someone cares!! lol.<333 ha yeah, and i think i need to drink more water! its just so weird caus ethis has never happend to me before, and its really hard for me to sleep lately too! dfgbsdhzgh im going crazy! lol.

same same! ahhhh im scared, lately i've been getting really dizzy out of the blue for no reason! it doesnt feel good! maybe its the heat???? idk, i hope thats all it is...i told my mom i think somethings wrong w/ me and i want to go to the dr. but idk...takes too much time...

hahahaha ahhh!! if this site dide...oh gosh!! id have to go watch TV! dun dun DUUUUUUN! or maybe just go get a life!

ahh am i the only one having problems w/ the board??? AND myspace!!!!? lol. ahhh i have nothing to do!!! lol.

ooo you better send a conplaint or something! lol.

i dont have money to join.

hahaha he looks like mr.bean!