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Court is nearing it's end and I think the Gladue report might hang me rather than spare me.

I confess it's "Christmas" as f*@k in here.

Superstar - Sonic Youth

I confess I don't like Paramore as much these days.

I confess i should log into this mother fugger more often.

hahahah man am I the only poor bastard here that hasn't gotten his photo taken with the band?! Jealous, Not zealous!

Edit: oh and looking good le venin, marijuana, Scott. and others earlier beore this page.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTvD0VNkKK8

since the last one sucked i wanted to get my fat ass on here again, Enjoy playuhs!

Warning! May contain some f*^%*ng offensive language?

upon the high

way up in the sky

said this is nothing

but a fucking breeze passing by

it's just like war

winning spoils from doors

just like blending

from angels to all the whores

my knuckles stay all bruised

cuts from "I-owe-you's"

nevermind this all

Adrenaline

Hand in hand to my own fall

It was a fight

and I was the winner

but there's no real loser

giving love to her

and then I abuse her

No more bullshit. this is real. this is life.

you say the truth

Never set you free

and has brought you

Sacrifice

and a fall

I say open your eyes

and you will be set free

because of all this time

You never seen the truth at all

Faith, why are you so pretty?! Unfair!

Catie, so adorable!

Kailey, your hair looks so good! You're gorgeous as always!

 

 

Photo shoot with my friend. My hair is muuch darker than that now though, it's on the verge of being black actually.

Real nice clothes. For some reason. Or outfit I guess. Dark and red.

I'd love to be workjing all day at this oment. Lets switch responsibilities. You can laze around all day.

Sick. Fainting feeling. Almost fainting. Pant. Pant. Pant. Splash water on my face. Pant. Pant. Puke. Pant. Pant. Lay down. Pant.

Pant. Pant. Pant. It's actually worse. ADRENALINE RUSH GET UP WALK AROUND. PANT. PANT. PANT.

And then about half an hour of feeling like i'm dying.

Inhaaaaale.....Exhaaaaale.....Ahhhh fuck this sucks. WTF DO I HAVE.

This place is boring.

Edit: OK not really but you know what I mean. I keep forgetting to log in and check this place but there is a reason as to why I stopped logging in.

Ive been through bullying myself and that was years ago, but even today i have consequences from it, with no confidence and low self-esteem. Im a little stronger since then, and it all stopped just cause one i snapped back and punched one of the people doing it. Violence isnt the answer though.

Solved my problems. Answered my solution.

But a morally correct way would manifest strength inside the person enduring harrassment. I myself have been a bully once and it's only been for attention. Trading in my wholesome face to humiliate someone just to elevate myself. At the time this was an awesome rush. Today it's shame and a lesson.

I think about my nephew being bullied and I oh so wish I had powers to change the world. So much to the point I have panic attacks for him. For everyone else also. I seen some guy get his a while ago and I couldn't do anything. I didn't want to hurt to protect. But sometimes you have to. Bullying is nasty. No one is born with hate. It's taught. Pressure to fit in, We all understand that all too well and I believe some who are reading this have an experience being the bully in some form or another. Shame it's bound to happen, You can't please everyone unfortunately. Seeing it from both ways has been helpful for me to adopt a passive selfishless life style.

Have been bullied, Faced racism from teachers and students alike because of being native throughout my elemetary years but have learned to forgive those that hurt me and prosecuted me with false charges. They were taught these things and the bully won't forget their victims. They themselves are victims to something that gave birth to their negative personality. This isn't the answer to everything but it will pass. Unfortunately it gets out of hand and too late sometimes.

Kinda developing a strange taste in women.

Was at Shoppers Drug Mart the other day and this young woman and her mother came round the corner. The young woman was probably just finished high school or going on to college (I'd like to think) and the mother was easily in her late 30's. That mom was FINE. Lately I've noticed I've been looking at older woman and this is just not comprehendable to me if thats how you even spell it.

Watching this video a lot of questions come up fresh with anger however despite this I know the questions will stay un answered. Why did this person do this. How, Where, What yadda yadda. I'd like to know the very reason. Too bad though, This is the world we live in. These types of people always bump shoulders with us down the street and we won't know they're the way they are.

Wonder if the lady is mentally retarded. Or mentally ill. Maybe shes a honor student smart enough to do this, She could also be stupid enough to do this. Point is is the puppies are breathing with blood throughout their veins and this woman decides to change that. Pisshes me off.

fml

i need to get off me bum and do something beneficial with my life but doesn't life fucking see that I'm sleeping!? Fuck off jobs. f off employers. f off friends. f off enemies. f off responsibility. f off production, determination and observation. This conscience sucks and any conscience capable of comprehending the cunt of the situation would realize to live only for themselves as the conscience would have already observed that exact same selfishness inside the will of others. However, If the will of others are underestimated by the conscience(Which it most likely is in this pessimistic time) then time will reveal the good intent of others by now AT LEAST. but NO. Chris has to put up with another day of bullshit. All of which bullshit contains so many efforts that weren't deserved at all by the practices of the loved ones.

*Ahem*

I confess shit just got real.

lol cool story bro!

(I actually read this all btw)

I would have thought you'd have been doing poems all your life! You have the array of words to keep it interesting the flow is quite the same so it's not an ocean to drink. It's really great!

Space Dust

No matter how many tears

The earth cries

Doesn't matter

As to the number of the wishes

Nothing will bring you back

The clouds beneath your feet

And the stars themselves at your neck

With nothingness as your seat

The skies and our love

Still lay beneath your feet

You found out the secret

And why they keep it

The dead themselves

Without the alive to see it

We're here we're the living

You're on your journey

On a loop of light

Repeated

That's for anyone who knows someone very dear that has died.

I don't even care anymore. If another album happens it does. It's not like I was waiting for Brand New Eyes that much. Just a lil, But not much.

This thread usually got more posts.

Up to now the songs I listened to did the trick but it's getting frustrating listening to the same song over and over just because I need to listen to it while actually finding the song I want to listen to. Now the song I want to listen to isn't a song I have in mind. I gotta find it, I am completely bored with the same line up of artists I frequent all the time. Too much of the time.

Bored. Burp.

I confess I need to be way more vocal with my opinion.

Dear Alan&Michelle,

I've come to know you guys these past days but this is the second time now that you don't give a fuck-about whats going on in front of you. Get a grip, Or else learn.

You both are stupid but I say that with love.