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i was just about to say...gosh

ug wow. james man, that really is terrible to hear. but i truly do feel for you man. almost two years has passed since i lost someone so dear to me. and up until that point i had never even lost a grandparent, so it was so new to me. i grew up in a really small town and my neighbor turned out to be my closest friend. growing up we always had all the same classes, did all the same sports and everyone just categorized us as a pair. they called us twins, because we even sort of looked alike. he was my best friend, and the "sorta" older brother i never had. even his family took me in when mine was going through some rough patches, and i still to this day go and see them whenever i am home to spend time with them. i got a call when i was up at a school from a really good friend who was crying uncontrollaby, and when he told me the news i didnt believe him. and so i got off the phone and laid back down...two seconds passed and another friend called me...the same story. after that i called my mother, and just lost it...she told me to come home now, and i disagreed telling her i had class. all day i sat with a blank face in each class, not knowing what to think or how to react. another good friend of both of ours went to college with me, and was in most of my classes...he kept telling me to go home, but it was only tuesday. wednesday i was in class, and i dont know what happened, but i had to get up and go to the bathroom...as i was leaving the bathroom, the professor i had saw me and how much trouble i had to be going through...she asked what was wrong and i just unloaded and told her everything. she told me that school could wait, and my place was at home. i needed to be with his family, and be with the people i love. but even when i was home, i just didnt know what to do or say, or how to react. i was mad all the time. people would want to talk, and i would always blow them off. people would want to console and tell me that they were so sorry that i no longer had him in my life, but it just made me more mad. at the wake i sat at his closed coffin and just cried and looked at the picture of him and i. people tried to get me to move along, but i brushed them off. why was he driving so fast that night? and why was it biggest damned tree in the world that he had to hit?? i knew deep down it had to be for a reason, but looking at my family and his...and a lot of the close friends we shared...i couldnt find it. and that made me more mad. james, i feel real bad for you, because i know just how rough this life will be without him in it. i truly hope that you learn to cope with the pain better than i did. because even to this day i am haunted by it. it hurts so bad, and i wish for it to happen to nobody. but that will never ever be possible. someone everyday will feel the pain we both felt. losing a best friend...a brother...a sister...whatever it may be. it always feels the same. all i can tell is to be more open and talkative about it with your family and friends. and try not to get mad at them...because they are only trying to help. i shut myself off for a few months and it really affected a lot of my relationships. but i had no understanding of what was going on or what i was feeling. my prayers go out to you man, and your family. be strong for them, but never think you cant let your guard down...especially now. dont be the way i was.

when i play the live albumm on the tvs, thats what really gets people usually.

older emarosa before they went to shit was a good example. other than that, nobody really sounds like them. i have posted my favorites by them though. i would probably start with dogs can grow beards all over, texas is south...and then move on to like reptar, king of the ozone. and then this soung is called and html rules dood...then go on to the next record. but if you hate the old stuff, dont stop there...cuz it does get much cleaner and better in my opinion...but i still love it all lol

Hunter!!! I miss him so much!! EFF!! =]

gina carano is seriously so attractive. i watched her fight a couple nights ago and i cant get enough!

i know right. and shes dating the goofy guitar player?? what?!

iwrestledabearonce. she is remarkable.

i was like staring when i saw her live. mmmmmm =]

same as the chick below haha. krysta cameron.

krystaaaaaaaaaaa

im really glad they did a video for that song. it has been my 2nd favorite from the first time i listened to it. gimme half is freaking so nasty too.

im confused on the meaning of disrespect lol

dont like lights as much. i saw that tour twice tho lol. ohhhh, haley bennett school girl style. love molly hartley =]

love lydia. i usually stare at her when i watch them live. lol

she'd definitely beat the piss out of me...but id welcome it, surely.

lovely.

ha me too. and him as well. underoath dwears protest the hero as i lay dying adtr old bmth i killed the prom queen i see stars broadway memphis may fire burden of a day in fear and faith just some i listen to often. some heavier then others obv.

they really are amazing. for bands ive started listening to in the last 3-5 years they are definitely one of my favorites. ronnie doesnt really scream lol. especially on lonely road. my brother is all about metalcore and screamo. he cant sing but he can belt some growls for real. hranica is definitely one of the best no doubt.

hayleyyyyyyyyyy! sorry that was off topic, dont ban me =]

mine changes alot too. sorry you're not a winner, anything can happen, and mothership are freaking awesome tho.

whats yalls favorite songs by them??

yea i met him a couple times on the almost/paramore tour. awesome dude. so talented.

my brother grew out a stache, and got the glasses so he could look like hranica. he always practices his scream too. hes basically obsessed, but i really love them too. seen em live a few times. theyre amazing.

hmmm i suppose. i actually like the new female singer more too. lol. the newer album is a lot more well rounded i think. but i like them both alot. i woulda put them in the list, but i was more focused on bands with just a female singer.