my.heart.

i stirred, feeling polished ebony curls slip over my shoulder and rest inches from the lips at the hollow of my shoulder blade. i didn't want to turn, to disturb the moment; and very disturbing it was. hands twice the size of mine gripped my shoulders, pinning me to the black lace of my dress as it snaked over my unwilling body. I lay perfectly still, wishing i could revert to the empty slumber where I lay motionless and propped up against a stone; carved explicitly and fiery hot. i inhaled and felt the alternate breaths thump like one heart. we are not one heart. i very deliberately inched my hand over my hip before knotting it into the other in front of me and cupping my neck, bracing myself and my soul for anything it would endure. my entity lay passive and waiting, but in truth i threw myself away. hands pushing away the burning skin and tangled blond hair, the perfect white teeth and serious glittering pools, i kicked my way to freedom; landing somewhere between my better knowledge and the comfort of another scent. extract from a longer story i'm writing.

"i said i'd write and i swear i did i just didn't send them to your address, well the search party is as lost as the rest of us." that's beautiful.

haha yes. it is inescapable in my mind at the moment. and i will! writing calms me down, so i think i'm going to be here everyday.

what stops me needing the distance i've burned between my thoughts and your lies what stops me bleeding the lick of your poison to seal in those tries you can't break me can't find what you're looking for i'm holding the razors inside my veins while i scream in my head and slowly our love drains what stops you reaching the shards of ice bouncing off your last words what stops me dreaming my personal nightmare circles in my head unheard you can't break me can't find what you're looking for i'm holding the razors inside my veins while i scream in my head and slowly our love drains not this time. not my mind. you'll never know. that gaping hole will never show.

i reeeally like that.

aha no need for that; it'd be well boring

I HAVE AN INTERVIEW AT BUILD A BEAR TOMORROW. wow.

mm don't we have a uk version though? don't think i've ever seen a us one.

anyone in the us willing to sell me a copy of the december vanity fair (and post to the uk)?

could someone who has the itunes version of the soundtrack send me the bonus tracks? i'm waiting on my cd and don't want to buy the whole album twice for 3 tracks :s

IKR?! i love the look on cam's face. but why is taylor so in the corner? it's saddening.

WHERE DO YOU FIND THIS MAGIC?

so that more or less made my life. as did watching that edward's secret video again. and also my mum brought me ice cream because i fell down the stairs.

thanks i love this picture; it's too adorable (and big hence the link) for words: http://www.everglowmedia.net/gallery/displayimage.php?album=lastup&cat=-102&pos=2

halloween in 2 days!! vampires are fun.

my jaw was hanging open until patrick stump promptly closed it. not attractive

anywhere else i can see this? i can't play the video since i'm in the uk - it says i'm restricted

sparkling.... your sig wins.

loaded. yes! i love that bit! what haven't we seen of the film now??

LOAD I TELL YOU LOAD!

oh crap i'll be 17 too at least i've got a nice shiny car if anyone needs a ride.

DNT LAI NAO. also, i'm nearly always late for school because i read twilight while simultaneously eating breakfast/straightening hair/getting dressed etc. and also cancelled some plans tonight because all i really wanted to do was finish re-reading eclipse. shame. thank god my social plans nearly always involve potential twilight conversation - i pity those of you whose friends aren't obsessed also :crybad:

aye. count me in

yes! the second time i read it i did so much slower and i like it more

don't be disappointed in the second once you get into it as it's a bit slow moving. most of my friends (including me) liked it least in the series and wanted to abandon it but STICK WITH IT :hyper: ordered my contacts for halloweeen!! i'm going shopping on the weekend for other bits and pieces with my friends (that'd be alice, rosalie and jasper ) ie. glitter, eye makeup and white powder. aha i can't wait for the twilightness that is going to be this halloween.... i'll post a picture before i head out to the party. also if you were wondering i've already got long brown hair; probably going to wear some extensions because as a vampire bella's hair was waistlength wasn't it? and i'm just wearing a black evening dress thing with heels.