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Takeshi's Castle

I confess I've eaten far too much rubbish today.

Well 2009 has been an....interesting year for me. There was 2 quite major issues going on with my family life which I've mostly kept secret from everyone apart from very close friends, and then there was the whole getting diagnosed with depression because of 'personal matters'. It was weird; you hear about all these people that have depression but you never think that you would get it yourself. Now I know how hard it is to cope with. I've also drifted apart from many of my close friends which I thought would never ever happen. Of course, that's a part of growing up and I just have to learn to go on in life and make as many new friends as I can along the way. There hasn't been any majorly good parts this year. The only thing I can think of was seeing paramore at Wembley. Although I'm very glad that I have an amazing family and good friends that I feel I can trust and it's good to know that I'm loved. As far as romantic relationships go, that's been kinda been non-existant for me. Oh well, a new year might bring something new and exciting! I say, bring on 2010 and let it be the best year anyone has ever had.

This year, I have... Graduated High School. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Nearly, hehe Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time without sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. Been in a car accident. Minor. Been in a tornado. Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid). Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Accidentally. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Cut yourself. Accidentally. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Had detention. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun. Gambled in a casino. Had a yard sale. And a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins. Gone to sea world. Attempted suicide. Voted for American/Australian Idol. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Wondered about your sexuality. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Overdosed. Had a drug or alcohol problem. Been in a fist fight. Suffered any form of abuse. Had a hamster. Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card. Gone surfing in California. Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Known someone with HIV or AIDS. Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. Had a party while your parents weren’t home. Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

2009 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? Stayed single almost the whole year? Sadly Done something you've regretted? Not really Lost someone? More grown apart Cut class? Yeah I've pretended to be ill a few times. Were involved in something you'll never forget? Nah Visited a different country? Nope, not enough money this year Cooked a gross meal? Nope Lost something important to you? Nope Got a gift you adore? Yes, many. Tripped over a coffee table? Ahaha yup, silly me. Dyed your hair? No Came close to losing your life? No Went to a party? Yep Read a great book? Lots of great books Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live? I did indeed 2009: Friends and Enemies Did you meet any new friends this year? Yep. Did you dislike anyone? Yes a select few people Did you grow apart from anyone? Yep but I hope we become close again of we work hard enough to solve our differences. Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? No. 2009: Your BIRTHDAY! Did you have a cake? Yep Did you have a party? Not one with my friends, I kinda forgot to organise one. Hey, they should have done it for me! Pftt. Did you get any presents? Yup Were you single? Yerp 2009: All about YOU Did you change at all this year? Yeah in a way Did you change your style? Not really, I just wear what I want when I want. Were you in school? Yep. Did you get good grades? Sorta Did you drive? Nope. Did you own a car? Nope. Did anyone close to you give birth? No. Did you move at all? Houses? No. Did you go on any vacations? No. Wow, what a boring year this has been. Would you change anything about yourself now? Many things that are impossible. 2009 WRAP UP: Was 2009 a good year? No, in fact it was one of the worst I've ever had. In 2009 did change for you if they did? Say what? Do you think 2010 will be better then 2009? It better be... (x) stayed single for the whole year ( ) kissed in the snow () celebrated Halloween () had your heart broken ( ) mooned someone ( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone ( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation ( ) came out of the closet ( ) gotten pregnant ( ) had an abortion ( ) done something you've regretted OTHER ( ) painted a picture (x) wrote a poem () ran a mile ( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch ( ) posted a blog on MySpace ( ) visited a foreign country ( ) cut in a line of waiting people (x) told someone you were busy when you weren't ( ) partied to celebrate the new year ( ) cooked a disastrous meal ( ) lied about how old you were ( ) prank called someone In 2009 I also.... [ ] fell out of love [x] told a little white lie [x] lied [ ] cried over a boy [x] disappointed someone close [ ] hid a secret [x] pretended to be happy [ ] slept under the stars [] kept your new years resolution [x] forgot your new years resolution [ ] met someone who changed your life [ ] met one of your idols [ ] changed your outlook on life [x] sat home all day doing nothing [x] pretended to be sick [ ]left the country [ ] almost died [x] given up on something/someone important to you [] lost something expensive [ ] learned something new about yourself [ ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it [ ] made a change in your life [x] found out who your true friends were [x] met great people [] stayed up till sunrise [x] cried over the silliest thing [x] had friends who were drifting away from you [] had a high cell phone bill [ ] spent most of your money on food [ ] had a fist fight [] went to the beach with your best friend(s) [x] gotten sick [ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time

I hope I can get all my homework done for Monday.

I confess I didn't realise it was New years eve today. =/

I confess I'm gonna be so glad when all the Christmas leftovers are gone. I swear I'm never going to eat turkey or gammon again, I'm sick of it.

The Holiday

Dear self, Try and be positive tomorrow. Sure, you're gonna be bored a lot of the day but they're your grandparents, you hardly ever get to see them. Becca

I confess my stomach really hurts.

This is late, but Happy birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAYLEY!!

I confess I can't believe I'm in a bad mood. =/

Merry Christmas everyone! I got an SLR digital camera, a couple of books, 3 CD's, clothes, makeup + various other smallish things.

getting an SLR camera for Christmas.

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I wish everyone has an amazing Christmas tomorrow

I confess I scraped my finger while trying to peel potatoes

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^ this But that's amazing news! Congrats Josh

Yup I confess I really should start on homework tomorrow.

I confess I have to go to Sainsburys later to get stuff for christmas with my mum. Great, walking on the ice trying to hold shopping bags, I can't wait.

1. Do you listen to any certain type of music when you work out? Haha, me? Work out? 2. When was the last time you killed a bug? No idea 3. Are you afraid of spiders? Terrified. I can't even look at one. 4. What is one superstition that you always abide by? *shrugs* 5. Do you know anyone who works as a truck driver? Nope. 6. Have you ever fixed a car? No, I have no interest in cars 7. Do you collect anything weird? I used to collect crystals when I was younger. 8. Is there an animal in the room with you right now? Yeah my cat Tilly. She's sitting on my piano stool. 9. What are you excited for? Chrsitmas, even though the house is gonna be filled with load screaming kids. *shudder* 10. Which do you prefer, singing or dancing? Singing 11. Name one thing you do when you're nervous. Bite my lip 12. What movie do you think SHOULD have won the Oscar for Best Movie? Don't know, don't care 13. Who do you think is better, Sylvester Stallone or Steve McQueen? Again, don't know, don't care! 14. Did Jaws really scare you? I haven't seen it yet. 15. Have you ever rode on a moped? Nope. 16. Does your house have more than one story? Yaarr 17. Who starred in the last movie you watched at home? Uhmm...Colin Firth, Hugh Grant, Keira Knightly, there's a few others who I can't remember. 18. Are you usually the one to make plans with friends, or the other way around? I'm always busy doing other things so it's usually them. 19. How often do you discover new bands? Well I try to as often as possible 20. Do you listen to podcasts? If so, whose? Nope. 21. Do you watch the BBC channel? Yup 22. Have you ever been to bored.com? Yeah that website amuses me 23. Which is your favourite music channel? I don't have the music channels anymore because my dad refuses to pay for them 24. Are you currently holding tickets for an upcoming event? No 25. Which year are you in a school, and are you satisfied with how this year has gone? I'm in year 11 and it's the worst year yet. So much work and hardly any time to relax. 26. Were you a Backstreet Boys fan or an N'Sync fan? Nope 27. How's your head lately? On my shoulders 28. Do you know how to design web pages? I did it in IT but I've kinda forgotten now. 29. Is there a piece of art in the room with you right now? Yup 30. When was the last time you baked anything? A couple of days ago. I made chocolate cookies. 31. Have you ever called someone a "wanker"? Nope 32. What colour is the bra your wearing right now, if you are? Black 33. If you were forced to, would you rather go to an opera or a jazz concert? Jazz? 34. Who rocks harder: Motley Crue or Guns N Roses? GNR 35. Are you planning to cut your hair anytime soon? If so, how? Don't think so 36. Have you ever cut your own hair? Horribly? No I'm too scared to cut my own hair in case it goes horribly wrong. 37. If it was your choice to pick a movie to watch, would you choose a rom-com or an action movie? Rom-com. 39. Have you ever watched Pee-Wee's Playhouse? No? 40. Do you have any friends who are vegetarian/vegan? Yes.