thanks.
I don't know. it's just a mixture of both.
and life has been so bipolar.
I went to my grandmother's funeral services saturday afternoon, and then I went to this all night lock in, and that was fun, but then I went out with family to a themepark all day, so physically, I feel like shit.
and then the whole thing with grandma has just brought up a lot of stuff with my dad, because he passed away over the summer. I just wish things would settle down. and that I physically felt better so that I could get around to doing something.