secret keeper

okay i am going to revive this. i think i am striaght. but i dont know. i really want to be striaght. but lately i feel like i like girls. but i have never dated anyone in my life. sad i know. how do i know? i want to be straight. maybe i am bi? i am sooo fucking confused. like i dream about having a boyfriend and holding his hand and being all in love and stuff. but then the next night ill have a dream i am kissing a girl. like i hate this shit. i want to be straight. i think i am? FUCK. help me.

I'm seeing a therapist for anxiety and I'm not sure if I should tell my boyfriend about it. I trust him like no other, but I'm afraid that he'll be weirded out by the whole thing, not like be a jerk about it but not really understand what I'm going through and take it for more than what it is.

my turn. well. he has a girlfriend. and it's been going on for more than a few months now. he tells me his girlfriend "wants to be single later on because of the lifestyle" ... so she's not really much of a girlfriend, i mean, how can she say that. i think she's stupid tbh. on MSN he's still flirty with me. last night he was horny and kept asking me to touch myself. if he was really happy with her he wouldn't be doing things with me, even if it's just cyber. i don't know what he wants. i've loved him for only God knows how long. what am i supposed to do..when will this be over so i can be with him finally. when will i SEE him...why is it so complicated. this circle never ends...

I wouldn't call wanting to suck your best friends cock hormones.

I'm not a teenager. I'm 24. I'm positive I'm straight too. I've never been turned on by guys. He doesn't even really turn me on, I just can't stop thinking about it, like I'm lusting for him.

I'm a guy, and I want to have sex with my best friend, who is also a guy, but I'm not gay, and neither is he. He even has a girlfriend! We just mess with people a lot about it, a concerts, and school, and what not, but it got me thinking, and now......I can't stop thinking about having sex with him.

My parents are waaaay too over protective. I'm old enough to hang out with my friends by myself instead of a parent always tagging along I really don't like it when I can't go hang with a friend 99.9% of the time because of some stupid excuse that they make up and the day ends up with me spending my time alone in my room when I can be at the movies or hanging with my friends. People have told me that they don't invite me out anymore because I always say no and because my parent has to come with me. It really hurt when they told me that and it made me feel alone and I'm so sick of being alone and locked up at home!!!!! The loneliness makes me cry most of the time and it sickens me and makes me feel worthless....

I think I'm bi. I told a few friends. Then got scared incase they blabbed, told them it was a joke and now I dunno what to do as I feel I really am but can't tell them again incase they don't believe me. And duh I can't tell family.

Paramore were good, but it disappointed me that (this was just before the break) they didn't interact with one another and Hayley didn't do much in instrumentals just did her head thing for a couple seconds then stood there.

lol no shes spose to be immitating hayley. what a cockblock.

yes.. lol

I don't know who I can really tell about this. Guess I can post it here. I recently went through a break-up. I was torn up for a while, thinking about this person alot. But now, I think I'm starting to like someone on this site. And I know I shouldn't like this person, And I also know that I have no chance with this particular person, Because I know that they dont swing that way. I just don't know what to do about this, It's really getting irritating.

I have the MAJOR urge to end it now. End all of it. Right here, right now. But i know if i do, alot of people would be like 'why've they done that. Their life's perfect.' Thing is, hardly any of them know what its like to be me. I mean, REALLY know what its like to be me. I just dont know what to do, and i feel that if i did end it, people would judge me too quickly.. =/

i absolutly love how most of these rants aplly to me. probably on purporse.

I'm going out with a guy who's bee my best friend for 2 years and today i spent the day with a guy i really like from college and we both like each other. I just don't know what to do. We were talking on the phone for an hour tonight and we admitted to each other that we wanted to kiss each other just before i had to get on my bus. I'm supposed to be going over the guy i like's on wednesday, staying over an exes on friday and staying over the guy i like's on saturday. I don't wanna cheat on my bf but i just dunno what to do... HELP!!!

i like this guy, who's abit of a 'get around' as you will and ive liked him for about a week, and i cant stop thinking about him. should i tell him?

I'm a girl but....Hayley Williams gives me butterflies =/

i have a new boyfriend, we've been going out for almost 6 months, thing is, i think i still love my ex.

Okay well i absolutely adore this one guy on the forums called 'Cav'. I've fell in love with ALL his posts and his totally awesome skillz. He is just so awesome and had his birthday yesterday, i just want him, but then again, what girl doesn't? Damn he is sexy.. The saddest thing is that there is only one girl who has a chance with him... And she happens to be lead vocalist of paramore..... Grrrrr

I'm a compulsive liar and no one knows it.

well i cut myself 2 days ago, i know i shouldnt, but i did and ive never felt so good. how pathetic is that..

this is my secret...a change of pace from the relationship secrets i dont think that i believe in god.... i know there are some religious people on this board and thats cool... i respect your decisions just like i would want you to respect mine... im very skeptical and thats probably the reason for me not believing... my reasons: 1)i dont see how any one person could get every animal on the face of the earth on one boat 2)there is no proof outside of the bible that moses actually existed. 3)there are things in the bible that are overlooked....its like we pick and choose what things in the bible we want to follow. ex women were put on the earth to serve the man. 4)im not gay but i think gay people were born gay. i just dont see why "god" would put someone on earth like that if he doesnt accept them. 5)most people who say they are "religious" are hypocrites. some of the biggest drug users i know are in youth groups and are in church every sunday....high or drunk. What about all the catholic priests molesting little boys? 6)No one person can part a sea. Its just not logical. Not even with a "miracle" Those are just a few reasons. Say what you want. It wont change my opinion. Stuff like this just doesnt make sense to me.

alright, so i've tired posting on here but at the end always deleted it. but since everyone is posting about their "hopeless crushes" why not me as well? lol ok so about a year ago, one of my closest guy friend told me that he liked me for the same amount of time i liked him. [which was for about two years] but neither of us ever said anything cuz we didnt want to ruin our friendship with the "awkwardness" but once everything was out in the open, i was so shocked and excited at the same time. he was the very first guy i've seriously ever liked and the only reason why i started talking to him was cuz i thought he was cute.lol but then we ended up being friends and i kept it a secret for those two years. and so we came back from winter break and everything was still normal between us. we were both wondering..."so what happens now?" and about a week after we came back to school, he had to go away on a school trip to perform at a theme park with other students. when he got back the next day, i felt like he started to distance himself away from me. at first i didnt really see it as anything, but then i noticed that he was spending a lot of his time with this girl [the kind of girl that all the boys drool over] i started to get mad, but my friends convinced me that i was just paranoid. so that weekend he took me out to watch a movie , it was seriously the most awkward thing ever. we didnt even say two words to each other the entire day. i was trying to so hard to find the right words to say to him, but it just wouldnt come out. but while we were eating, i finally got the guts to tell him that i wanted a relationship with him and he said the worst possible thing ever...he said that he thinks we should just remain friends and that he didnt want to ruin the "friendship" we have. and when i thought it couldnt get worst, it did...he said that he had a really great time with that girl [they went on that trip together] and he felt a greater connection with her then he did with me. i was so hurt but yet i didnt show him. i seriously wanted to break down in front of him but i just put up a fake smile and said it was "ok" after that i knew that our "friendship" would never be the same. we hardly ever talk after that and one day i saw them holding hands, and that was when i knew they were together. and everyday for the past 9 months i had to watch him hold and kiss her and act as if i was alright with everything. i think that was the hardest thing, always putting up a fake smile in front of everyone. and even though he put me through all that, leading me on and making me look like a fool in front of everyone, i still have the same amount of feelings for him and to this day.. he still has no clue. [whoa. i just wrote a fricking novel.lol] =/

yeah, but if he's classy, what if he doesn't wear band tee's? i'm j/k

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