I hate how weak I am. not physically, but mentally. there's stuff in my life that I just can't deal with. everyone says 'be positive'. I cant be fucking positive if it's not going to work out. or they say 'its part of life, just grow up and deal with it'. well sorry, but if life has to kick you on the gut so hard, then I'm not sure I can take it. and I resort to people for help, and I need to stop, they couldn't give a shit. i need someones help and support, someone who doesnt care how much shit is included in knowing me.