Renith182

Man they're gonna be on TRL eh? thats awesome that they are and everything (tho most of the stuff on TRL is useless to me). But i guess i feel sorry for u guys that have actually spent a fair amount of time with them. Cause i bet my bottom dollar that the after they get on TRL, trying to meet them would require you to break through a bunch of secret service and US marshall guys. haha. Does anyone know whether they are insanely popular in Japan? haha im goin there for a holiday and i might be able to see them for the first time there in Osaka. hope i get to share a good story with ya fellas. Peace Ren

1)Well i've got stiff competition and that paired up with me not having a relationship in my 19 years of living doesnt bode well for me. 2) The possibility and the promise of falling head over heels for a girl i dont even know or even met (only seen in still frames and moving pictures) would smother me in my sleep. 3) With the way Paramore is getting more popular, any relation of the band whether family or boy/girlfriend would probably have a harder time seeing each other. Of course if your one of the guys touring with them whether you're a merch guy, or their driver or another band touring with them (getting into a band and making it big to tour with Paramore just to be with Hayley would be doin it for all the wrong reasons.As heroic as that sounds your putting your head on a chopping block and waiting for it to just get chopped off) 4)As much as i'd like to think my chances with her are good, haha its the longest shot id ever have in my life (a few thousand miles across the pacific ocean to be specific). Its never a problem of why i do it, its a question of how i would go about doin it. Guess that answers your question mate. You sound like a good man Jarrod, not one of those guys always chasing tail. I've seen too many good girls get ruined by that shit. Guys like us need to show guys like them what really being a man is about. 'Fuhgedaboudit man'. Ren

Hey good luck Jarrod. haha i couldn't ever have a girl like Hayley. Not in this lifetime and not in 10. I'd just be an asshole to think it. Ren

Heres another song i wrote about the same time as the last. Its related to what happened in Catch 22, with lyrics buldozed from the bottomless pit i call my heart. Enjoy Days Gone By Verse 1 -Left at 1 o’clock to see you, the ride over saddened with thoughts -Wednesday afternoon you existed, a warm entity within my heart -Remembering the first time I saw you, gazing into those beautiful eyes -2 weeks from then now we’re here, saying our last goodbyes Verse 2 -Arriving at my destination, to see your smile just one last time -The stillness of the air between us, broken by words that cant come out -Talking about lives ahead of us, the hug I wish would never end -When I left the door shut on me, with tears pumped straight to the heart Pre-Chorus -One lifetime for everyday spent without you -Regrets kicking me in the ass -One lifetime for everyday spent without you -Fate keeps kicking me in the ass Chorus -If I knew you earlier would this all be different? From the wondering peaks today -So short more than a friend more than the system, of bases we all love to play -If I could’ve been the man always beside you, the one that catches you when you fall -Will I be the only one to remember, counting the days gone

Aight sorry guys. Forget i ever said anything.

Do you guys really reckon Hayley has a boyfriend? So far i havnt heard anyone talk about him or seen pics of him. It could be one of those long distance relationships, where they see each other a few weeks/months a year. Just a possibility. Any one like to elaborate? Ren

Hey Ashhh, Cant say that i have seen Memento ill try check it out. Just read the plot for it sounds pretty interesting. Have u seen the movie When Trumpets fade? hehe outta of all the war films i've seen its probably one of the best.. does good in portraying what war is really like. Its up there on my list with Saving Private Ryan (or ryan's privates haha) and Hamburger Hill. Ren

Nothing (;

Favorite Movies- The Godfather Part I, II and III, Donnie Brasco, Scarface, Resevoir Dogs, Goodfellas, Casino, Mafioso, Snatch, Crime Spree,Blow, Mobsters, Revolver. Basically Crime or Mob related movies or movies with complicated but intruiging storylines. Worst Movies to date- Jeepers Creepers I and II. God its like a bloody Dildo with wings flying around raping people to death lol. Ren

Hey everyone. Heres another song i wrote more recently (a year and a half ago haha). Well the song's about a girl. I guess you can figure out the rest. CATCH 22 Verse 1 -As I pretend to hold you all night long, knowing next Thursday you’ll be gone -Cherish these moments I still have with you, in June the days will all go wrong -My mind is blurred full of awkward thoughts, my heart can’t stop beating just for you -Saw you tonight with eyes all over, First times will always be the last Verse 2 -Looked at you then time is always slower, still frames forever embedded in my mind -Wished you stayed longer in the corner of my eye, the end of the carousel was always nearby -Persistently hoping I’d be given the chance, reflection in the mirror told me the answer -Ambient noise destroys all connections; one-way emotions I dreamed would come to pass Verse 3 -Waited all day to just find you once that night, held back feelings that never come out right -Saying ‘I love you ‘would break my outer shell, doing nothing would keep it locked inside -The smoke rises to the hollow point, still cant stop trying to get your attention -But when the last note rings where your ears open up, words still don’t come out still rolling about Chorus -Such lovely feelings making me fall apart; false hope and false reality will never be pardoned -If only I met your earlier when the world was bright, but life is last minute, three strikes and im out -Revised emotions of a darker mood, gets overwhelmed by the doubtful good -But all that matters right now is this, will I see you again? In this Lifetime at least bridge -Ask myself why its gaining momentum, train of hope crashes into my heart -Punch the glass and feel the blood, run into the river of lost pride -Ask myself why its losing momentum, never want it to end, don’t want it to end -The story ends with no remembrance, end of the chapter of Cara McLeod Outro -If I met you earlier would this all be different? If you weren’t with him would I be significant? -The day I met you I didn’t know what to say, If I met you earlier would it all be the same?

I would really love to watch this video but since im outside of the US all the download slots for megaupload are used at all times. ): Does anyone have it on rapidshare? Ren

Its unfortunate that those guys are jerkoffs. I mean why bother to waste your time and money going to the concert just to diss them. I mean those guys would have a better time blowing each other in a porta-potty. Unfortuanatly since im not nearby i cant go to a Paramore concert tho ill be in Vancouver 3 months from now so that increases my chances. But as for the the solution. Ill call my 'Uncle Paulie' from New Jeysey to go look after Hayley and if there are any rude guys, he'll 'take care of it'. And if words dont work too well then hes gonna 'make him an offer he cant refuse' Fuhgedaboudit Ren

Heres a Song i wrote over 3 years ago. Recorded the music but never the vocals (haha i couldn't sing to save my life tho writing this song probably saved it). Anyways enjoy Dream World Verse 1 All the times we talked, I saw it as any other thing Didn’t notice why u never called me back, kept me wondering Expelling the bad vibes, that was being thrown at me Suspending real life, to not let it get to me Throw a blanket over reality Never know the truth that blinds it Don’t want to see the light outside the prison This world of mine is what makes me a person Verse 2 All the times I dreamt of doing the impossible Never noticing that it was never plausible Never had the strength to do anything I thought you gave it to me, but was a shadow in the dark I never wanted things to be this way The helpless feelings that inhibits my mind All I wanted to see, was myself as a hero But my dream world was shattered to zero Chorus All I wished for was to make you smile To make you happy, free from denial But this self afflicted pain, causing all the troubles Nothing can get me out of this rubble All I wished for was just to kiss your lips Just hold you day by day, full of bliss But nothing can destroy my imagination The integrity of my fascination