indabisofmisery

i confess my sister and her boyfriend are making me want to vomit.

^ i agree fully.

^ ugh i know and they're adorable together.

i mean, i don't usually go for chicks like her, but goddamn: phase not over yet. enjoy.

This year, I have... Graduated High School. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time without sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level course. in college. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid). Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane. Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Cut yourself. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Had detention. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. Dropped out of school. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary. Fired a gun. Gambled in a casino. Had a yard sale. And a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins. Gone to sea world. Attempted suicide. Voted for American/Australian Idol. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Wondered about your sexuality. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. (SOOOOOO MANY TAXIS.) Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Overdosed. Had a drug or alcohol problem. Been in a fist fight. Suffered any form of abuse. (I wouldn't say suffered... possibly subjected to, but not suffered.) Had a hamster. Petted a wild animal. Used a credit card. Gone surfing in California. Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Known someone with HIV or AIDS. Taken pictures with a webcam. Started a fire. Had a party while your parents weren’t home. Gotten caught having a party while they were gone. 2009 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? Stayed single almost the whole year? Most of it, yes. Done something you've regretted? Nah Lost someone? Not really, a couple of friends have drifted away, but hey, that's college. Cut class? As many times as I could without getting caught lol Were involved in something you'll never forget? Yeap Visited a different country? No, hopefully in 2010 tho Cooked a gross meal? Probably Lost something important to you? Nope Got a gift you adore? Yes Tripped over a coffee table? Nope Dyed your hair? No Came close to losing your life? No Went to a party? Yep Read a great book? A few Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live? Yep yep 2009: Friends and Enemies Did you meet any new friends this year? Lots Did you dislike anyone? Yes Did you grow apart from anyone? Oh yes Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? Actually I do 2009: Your BIRTHDAY! Did you have a cake? Yep Did you have a party? Nah Did you get any presents? Only a couple Were you single? Barely 2009: All about YOU Did you change at all this year? Totally, yes Did you change your style? Nope Were you in school? Yep. Did you get good grades? Yeah Did you drive? Yep Did you own a car? Technically, yes Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope Did you move at all? I moved into a dorm Did you go on any vacations? A little one Would you change anything about yourself now? I don't think so 2009 WRAP UP: Was 2009 a good year? It was ok. In 2009 did change for you if they did? What? Do you think 2010 will be better then 2009? I would hope so ( ) stayed single for the whole year (x) kissed in the snow (x) celebrated Halloween ( ) had your heart broken ( ) mooned someone ( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone (x) someone questioned your sexual orientation (x) came out of the closet ( ) gotten pregnant ( ) had an abortion (x) done something you've regretted OTHER ( ) painted a picture ( ) wrote a poem ( ) ran a mile ( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch ( ) posted a blog on MySpace ( ) visited a foreign country ( ) cut in a line of waiting people (x) told someone you were busy when you weren't (x) partied to celebrate the new year ( ) cooked a disastrous meal ( ) lied about how old you were ( ) prank called someone In 2009 I also.... [ ] fell out of love [x] told a little white lie [x] lied [ ] cried over a boy [x] disappointed someone close [x] hid a secret [x] pretended to be happy [x] slept under the stars [ ] kept your new years resolution [x] forgot your new years resolution [x] met someone who changed your life [ ] met one of your idols [x] changed your outlook on life [x] sat home all day doing nothing [x] pretended to be sick [ ]left the country [ ] almost died [ ] given up on something/someone important to you [ ] lost something expensive [x] learned something new about yourself [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it [x] made a change in your life [x] found out who your true friends were [x] met great people [x] stayed up till sunrise [ ] cried over the silliest thing [x] had friends who were drifting away from you [ ] had a high cell phone bill [x] spent most of your money on food [ ] had a fist fight [x] went to the beach with your best friend(s) [x] gotten sick [ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time

i confess the young victoria was amazing and i totally recommend it. i also confess i watch way too many movies.

i confess the great buck howard is a really funny movie

Happy Birthday Hayley!!!

- i'm wearing a brand new necklace that my sister gave me for xmas and that i absolutely love - i just ate linguini with clam sauce - i REALLY need to plan my trip with my aunt, like, now - i want to go to italy with my friend this summer - i can't afford that ^

i confess i feel like i kind of need to tell my sister that i'm bisexual, cuz she probably suspects. but i don't know when/how/if i should right now at all.

i confess my family really needs to get over themselves and stop picking on me at all hours of the fucking day.

holy crap! hope she's better!

omg that's so exciting! congrats to josh and jenna!!!

i've been watching mtv tonight, and the ONLY commercials they're playing are sherlock holmes. makes me not want to see it.

i confess i love my friend from school soooo much

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1. Do you listen to any certain type of music when you work out? i rarely work out, and when i do, i'm playing a sport. so i don't listen to music. 2. When was the last time you killed a bug? summer? 3. Are you afraid of spiders? only of big ones and ones that jump. 4. What is one superstition that you always abide by? knocking on wood 5. Do you know anyone who works as a truck driver? yes 6. Have you ever fixed a car? nope 7. Do you collect anything weird? not really 8. Is there an animal in the room with you right now? yes 9. What are you excited for? christmas 10. Which do you prefer, singing or dancing? singing 11. Name one thing you do when you're nervous. i don't get nervous often. 12. What movie do you think SHOULD have won the Oscar for Best Movie? i don't remember what was up for it. 13. Who do you think is better, Sylvester Stallone or Steve McQueen? neither. gross. 14. Did Jaws really scare you? it was too corny for me to continue watching 15. Have you ever rode on a moped? no 16. Does your house have more than one story? yes 17. Who starred in the last movie you watched at home? emily blunt <3 18. Are you usually the one to make plans with friends, or the other way around? i usually have to beat plans into their heads 19. How often do you discover new bands? pretty often, i work at a radio station 20. Do you listen to podcasts? If so, whose? no 21. Do you watch the BBC channel? not often 22. Have you ever been to bored.com? no 23. Which is your favourite music channel? none of them really play music anymore 24. Are you currently holding tickets for an upcoming event? no 25. Which year are you in a school, and are you satisfied with how this year has gone? freshman year in college, and yes. 26. Were you a Backstreet Boys fan or an N'Sync fan? n*sync 27. How's your head lately? lovely 28. Do you know how to design web pages? no 29. Is there a piece of art in the room with you right now? yes 30. When was the last time you baked anything? yesterday 31. Have you ever called someone a "wanker"? no 32. What colour is the bra you're wearing right now, if you are? white 33. If you were forced to, would you rather go to an opera or a jazz concert? opera 34. Who rocks harder: Motley Crue or Guns N Roses? guns n roses 35. Are you planning to cut your hair anytime soon? If so, how? no 36. Have you ever cut your own hair? Horribly? no 37. If it was your choice to pick a movie to watch, would you choose a rom-com or an action movie? rom-com 39. Have you ever watched Pee-Wee's Playhouse? no 40. Do you have any friends who are vegetarian/vegan? yes

i confess wifeswap is the most annoying show ever.

1. Do you believe in god or more than one god? One, yes. 2. Have you or a sibling ever had to move out of your parents' house? I technically have, I'm in college. 3. What do you like best about summer? Going to the shore with my family 4. What was the last nightmare you had about? No idea. 5. Do you have any sex toys? Do your parents know you have them? Nope. 6. Are you a scene kid? No way 7. Who was the last person who called you? The last person you called? My mom and my stepmom 8. When's the last time you went to a coffee shop? What did you get? Iunno I was at school. And I got a caramel-mocha frappuccino 9. Do you like the Japanese culture? Do you wish you were Japanese? I like Japanese culture that doesn't involve those weird toys and cartoons and junk. And no, I do not wish I was Japanese. 10. Have you ever thought you found "the one"? No 11. Who do you miss right now? Some peeps. 12. Have you ever tried to contact someone but couldn't reach them? My dad. Often. 13. Do you know anyone with schizophrenia? Sometimes I think my sisters do lol 14. Do you usually wear a seatbelt in the car? Yep 15. Have you ever watched a sunrise or sunset? Sunset usually. Sunrise once or twice when I've stayed up all night. 16. Have you ever had an old lady give you peppermints? What the hell kind of question is that... 17. When's the last time you consumed alcohol? Umm... like 3 weeks ago. 18. What is something you've never done before that you want to try? Um. I don't know. 19. Would you walk 500 miles for the one you love? Yep I would 20. Do you know someone who died at a young age? Yes. 21. How do you get over break ups? None of mine have phased me much. 22. Do you know anyone named Sara(h)? Oh yes. 23. Are you friends with any of your exes? Yes 24. Ever been to Vegas? Nope 25. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Americone Dream 26. Have you ever had a parent tell you to behave but you didn't listen? No 27. What's the best party you've been to? Christmas party last year 28. What is your favorite candy? Reese's 29. What would you do if someone wanted a ransom for your friend? Who knows. 30. Have you ever kissed a girl and liked it? No, but I would like it. 31. What is 70x7? 490 32. Do you know anyone who's died in a hospital? Yes. 33. What is your ASL? 18, female, split time bw NJ and MD 34. Has anyone wrote you a love song? Nope. 35. Do you ever hear voices in your head? No 36. Do you believe in karma? Yes. 37. Has there ever been a time when you seriously couldn't breathe? Yep. I had heatstroke. I've also had a fair few asthma attacks. 38. Have you ever had your mom shine a light in your closet or under your bed to show you there weren't any monsters? No, I wasn't a gullible enough kid to believe in monsters lol 39. Has anyone ever surprised you late at night? Nah 40. Wouldn't it be convenient if you could breathe underwater? Yeah man 41. Who was the last person to kiss you? Mike 42. The tent's so big in your pants baby. Someone has a lot of time on their hands. 43. Do you like lemonade? Yes 44. Do you hate papercuts? Yes... 45. Do you like sex and drugs? Yes and I have no idea. 46. Have you ever had a blood transfusion? Nope. 47. Do you feel comfortable when you're naked? Yeah 48. Are you so sexy, it hurts? Absolutely 49. Would you rob a jewelry store with a gun if you could get away with it? No 50. Did you play pretend as a kid? I totally did. All the time. how do you occupy yourself from boredom?: Internet how do you respond to really long surveys?: With answers? do you dislike "your mama" jokes?: Yeah, ever since that stupid ass Yo Mama show. ever been so stunned, no words came out?: Yeah I think so as you become older, what are you going to miss as a child?: I just miss not having to do anything ever. why do people complain about the silliest things?: You tell me. (ditto) do you know what "if there's a will, there's a way" actually means?: Yes... name something you dislike about this site: Spammers and people who post dumb shit just to start fights. do you know any quotes by abraham lincoln you'd like to spill?: He's already spilled them, so why would I? last food/drink you released upon yourself: That sounds pretty wrong. appromixate: how many books you have judged by their covers: I usually don't do that. choose: finding out you love a teacher, or the nerdy kid next door?: Nerdy kid are you obsessive over edward cullen?: No would you rather have someone steal your desires, or your inspirations?: Uhh... pick: rather be stuck in a hospital for 6 days, or the army for 2? Why?: Hospital. opinion: on surveys that begin with your name, age, etc?: Stupid. would you rather eat your hand, or give up a family member? Why?: Eat my hand... what the hell kind of choice is that? which: eat 1,000 slugs, or go to summer school?: Summer school. Cuz in college, summer school is a choice most of the time. do you know any people who cuss in every sentence?: Yep. ever written that you were going to end your life?: No ever put fake bugs around your house to scare someone?: No. is there a reason you have the name you do?: I don't know. I think my mom just liked it. how do you feel when: you give money to charities?: I feel good, but I've only been financially able to give my own money once or twice. do you have a specific charity you donate to?: Whatever charities are collecting outside of the cafe at school. I did an AIDS one and a Support our Troops one. if your school is trying to raise money, do you participate?: Not terribly often, because I'm already paying 40 grand to be there anyway. hot pockets: banned, or make more of?: I don't eat hot pockets. what degree do you need to get where you want to be in life?: I'm not exactly sure where I want to be yet, but I'm definitely going to need a college degree or higher. do you make fun of people for the way they talk?: No choose: the best song by green day?: I kind of hate them all. blurt out a random inappropriate word:: Tits.

^ *kills harder*

^ *kills*

i know i can't get enough of her

i've pretty much loved all of her hair, barring the purple/red bangs thing. that was odd.

so i'm going through a phase. it's name is emily. ta dahhh: