MarMaramore

Matt and Kim T+S are good too (not sure if they're really indie, but still great) You Say Party! We Say Die! The Temper Trap MGMT Two Door Cinema Club Bon Iver Iron & Wine Copeland The Hush Sound Now Now Every Children The Rentals Metric New Pornographers Holy F*ck Motel Motel Phoenix Eisley Black Kids Friendly Fires Elbow Laura Marling Noah and the Whale Matt Costa (kinda indie) Ida Maria

well thank you. (: takes me about a thousand years to get ready to leave my house now.

i forgot how amazing you all are. geez. holleh, awesome. wrote this about... 8 months ago. you can talk all you want, and i'll still feel alone, because on my own is where i am, and on my own is home. you can write all you want and i'll still feel so tired 'cause a letter is only half as good as your little post-it smile. And you say that you miss me And you say, "it can't be the same" And you tell me, it's no different Than the other times you forgot my name. You've taught me a valuable lesson You know I won't soon forget You taught me to design these walls of steel And never to trust again... when I look up and I see My wrists, arms, and legs bound, along with my feet I know who to thank I know who's pullin' my strings And where they want me. Put words In my mouth And tell me To stand out Of the crowd In which I'm stuck "Well, you never had the beest luck, kid"

it's been about a year. so two forms of action will be taken 1) i will tell you, that your pictures have all managed to make me smile. 2) i've changed over the past year, and this is the last time i logged in, and now-a-days. a year ago: now:

i think we can all pretty much adopt the phrase "hearts, not parts"

hmm. well, i wouldn't spend too much time trying to convince anyone what you are. just let it be, and when the time comes, elaborate.

literally, it's been about a year since i checked in here. thought i'd throw this in there. those of you who know me, know i'm a pretty good advice giver, or just someone good to talk to. those of you who don't, feel free to message me or email me if you need someone to talk to you. stuff can get tough, so i understand. i don't login much, but i'll try to get on more. anyways, PM or email. here's my email: mariah.wester@gmail.com keep the heads up, and the rainbows arched! <3 -mariah.

i hate when i haven't been to a site like this in almost a year, and when i login, i know it's my fault that i have no idea what's going on.

Best of luck my love! hopefully, it goes well. i'm guessing you and sinead are still hangin-n-bangin>? that wasn't sexual until just NOW/. anyways, tons of love, marmar.

ffwd to 3:24 "HETEROSEXUALS LIKE ICE!" ... "I THINK WHAT YOU'RE SENSING IS A VERY VERY STRONG I LIKE MEN VIBE" there's my bit of gay for the month. love you guys and miss those of you who i know... tons of love, -mlw.

I've written a couple lately. but nowhere near as great as you guys' work. I don't really feel like putting up where breaks and verses go etc. sorry. "Jessica" i'm in between whether i'm in between, and where i lie, i'm lost for dreams, no escape, i can't break free, of things that make me, me. broken i lay, slowing down, i'm tearing down what's left of days, and i've been so lost without, something sweet to smile please talk to me, please, i need to know what's wrong with me? please talk to me, please, i need to know what i need to be? it seems to me... that i just don't know what to do... and i never know the right words to say to keep you by me... when the day is over and i haven't spoken a word it feels like i just can't go on without you ruling my world and the times we close the curtain, hoping for tomorrow to be the greatest feeling in the world... these airwaves, just don't seem to be good for you or good for me unless we're alone in person it's been so long since i've felt anything near this love and it's just something i haven't had in a while... it's going to be, something hard for you and something hard for me but hopefully i can be yours, i'd be happy if you'd... "An Eye, Another Exercise" caged in my own thoughts i find that you keep breaking my heart and i'm drowning in guilt at how i let you break down my walls it seems that you just don't understand that i have a heart and you hold it in those hands and it's like you just don't care that i need you here, and i need you by me maybe i'm not serious enough because it's like i'm crushing my own heart maybe i don't know what you want don't you feel like you can talk to me? maybe it's all in the way that i say that i need you and i'm still crying without you maybe it's just all my fault that i let you pull me in and push me right out "Drowning" i sit and i find that everything i've ever worked for was just another way out and another thing to look forward for i'm drowning myself in perverted thoughts i can't help it seems to me i'm not worth anything and i work so damn hard towards this "nothing" i would love to bring me back to where this started i'm scared that i was just hiding from myself i'm afraid of everything it seems that i don't know what you're thinking "Like 2009" Good morning, Good morning I'm screaming "How are you?" It's cold out, It's cold out I've shivered Too long now I'm wondering I'll wonder What I'll say What you'll say We're quiet We're awkward Like 2009 I'd rather take my own time And bring us back to then To when the honesty was fluid And these times were just a matter of How? "Are You Nervous?" do i ever say the right things? or am i still just talking to myself? at this world's end I'll hopefully still be holding your hand and you've got nothing to say and it seems like you're just using me if i could read you, like you know me i'm guessing i'd find another version of me you make me jealous, like i have never been when i'm invisible, it seems i don't exist i'm so so so so sorry, i can't be perfect but i need you with me and i don't know how else to say it... you second guess me like you second guess your wardrobe you ask me if the end is something good for us both i'm so so so so sorry, that i'm not worth it but i need to be in your arms somehow, or i'll never give up ***this one is really really long and slow... i hate it, but love it. eh... "Under Oceans" i swear, this life is like an ocean. it's all smooth sailing until you reach the dark parts. it gets a little choppy and then you hit the big waves. sometimes, you lose a man at sea, and sometimes, they jump. i don't understand how the tides work yet, but i do know this: life is an ocean just waiting to toss you around and flip you upside down. but i always want you to know, if you ever fall overboard or feel like jumping, i will always be your raft. always. and i guess i just dont know how to say it but you're just so sticky sweet and i don't know how you don't see it. you're the only reason for the smile on my face and the beat of my heart loses count when you're out of trace... when i fall, i fall hard and i'm scared of the dark if i dig, i know that i'll find more than i bargained for, sadly in my mind, i'm scared, in my room, i'm scared, in your arms, i'm scared. i've done more than one can imagine to damage myself and i'm so close to isolation, in these feelings of guilt. i'm hanging on the edge of safe and forever and either way i know i can't keep smiling forever, when the day's over, i find that darkness is friend, if i weren't so scared of what it held... once i knew you as "comfort", and a few times even "love" then you pull the rug out from under me and tell me i don't make you happy you tell me you don't make me happy... assuming that you loved me once, assuming maybe twice you dont really understand exactly how much i rely on you. for hope and comfort and love and things in between. i really dont know how it happened, but for a second i was starting to believe you looked at me that way too. i mean, i know that i'm not a dream. i dont know how i could be. i understand that. i just dont get how i got to be with someone so amazing and let myself believe that they cared as much as i did and let them hurt me more than anyone ever has. i asked little of you. "just love me and be honest if you don't" and i hope to some high power out there that maybe, just maybe, i might be over you soon. you broke my heart, i don't think that needs to be explained, but it's broken. i had hoped that the clothespins i used to hold my heart together were working, they did, and for the briefest moment i felt loved. i don't understand you, or what you want... i guess i'm just meant to be... lost?

well, you all got much better looking. haha. kidding. you've been nice looking for a while now. I've already changed again. how crazy. well, due to my mother's want to scare me out of my supergayness, she decided to cut my hair. my best friend's little foster brother asked the other day "who dis new boy you hang over wiff?" I am no boy, nor am i new. but i do look like one.

Dear Katie's Knee. Stop hurting katie! **Meanface!** That's right! -marra.

I confess that i'm a very bad forum member! i'm sorry!

I wish i logged in more often because i miss everyone!

Dear Jessica O. i swear, this life is like an ocean. it's all smooth sailing until you reach the dark parts. it gets a little choppy and then you hit the big waves. sometimes, you lose a man at sea, and sometimes, they jump. i don't understand how the tides work yet, but i do know this: life is an ocean just waiting to toss you around and flip you upside down. but i always want you to know, if you ever fall overboard or feel like jumping, i will always be your raft. always. <3 your marra.

holy gayness, batman! i haven't been here in forever. i just thought i'd come in and say hi. hi everyone. i miss you guys... and gals especially. hehe. anyways, to keep things on topic, i'm still gay, have a girlfriend who is f*cking AMAZING and makes me smile more than anything in the world, andddd i'm listening to some really gay music right now painting art for a gay art thing. gaygaygay. just thought i'd let you know.... GAY. anyways, i miss you folk, -mariah

i'm now in need of a pfgf

haha. only like.. 633. XD for how long i've been here, I am lacking!

the other day...

hey gays! haha. well, i've a new lady friend type person. her name is hannah. not really a NEW crush, but a newly admitted one. XD I told about a month ago on our trip to Ashland that i liked her and she was like "I'M LIKE IN LOVE WITH YOU!" it was cute as hell. anyways... KATIE! I have friends that need lady friends, unfortunately, you live all the way over there. maybe I'll make them teleport to you.

haha. i said i HAVE sent them. i haven't drank in months. i'm trying this whole "sober" thing... since me and sierra started dating *in June* and even after we broke up, i haven't drank. i mean, my mum will give me a shot once in a while, otherwise, nothing.

haha. "aosdife... theweds somethginaoe i nede ot letl yuo...youire a girr;l" ahaha. just kidding. i sent something like that to my friend once. did not go well. XD

yes. oh, and for the topic that we're in. Still gay.

*sheer excitement and happy joyness*