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"Pigeon." Birds were never free They're chained to the sky With breaks between Starved myself for weeks The bird and the worm Have yet to meet. Ignore this nature of mine I'm no child I'm no messenger pigeon I'm just winged And desperate No hunting tradition They were there When my blood turned to sugar And I was sweet for a moment. Scurrying like ants But still standing in the same Spot they have been For decades __________________________________ "Old Woman" I'm told Someone loves me But what's left to love? The broken old woman Stealing bodies of the young I'm worried for my sake I'll find my own way in I've borrowed, I've taken Much more than I've given No kind hand has ever Taken me up And shown me Unconditional love No strong man Or woman Has taught me enough About undeniable love. A bed is left unmade by me I'm truly sorry, Mother A bed was left unmade today I won't forgive you, Father. I'm told Someone loves me But what's left to love? The broken old woman Stealing bodies of the young __________________________________ "Play By Rules" Who am I to practice All I practiced as a child When my eyes have seen the world around And pointed out the lies? Who are you To call ME naive? When I obviously Fend for myself. Just play by rules Try to hurt me Waste your time But I'm not interesting. Past, floating Down the drain Left a spiral Down-falling ring. I'm finally free. Give me hope with what you say Nothing takes memory away, When you lock me up inside this shell A small reminder of my own little hell. I'm no longer alone, But I fend for myself. __________________________________ "Phoenix" This is a recipe for disaster. What's eating you? What's eating you? And when you're paper thin Your promises devour you. I'm losing sleep, Staying up after The lights go out. The lights go out. And when you're living in Paper thin skin, You drift about. You drift about. No matter how many words I fill you with You won't get full You'll just get rid Of these words. All the king's horses And all the king's men Couldn't put you back Together again From old ashes Comes new life So burn me, lover So I can stay alive. __________________________________ I'll set sail on an ocean of crows On the wings of my father, over disappointment road Solid wood organs inside me feel nothing but a heartbeat __________________________________ Like wolves, we need another. Like dogs, we're chained to our paths. Placed in the same cold cave every winter Like wolves, we travel in packs. __________________________________ I've been looking for a way To get my passions entertained And take the trouble from my bones. So give me a thumbs up, And a short, short trip, And get me back on the road. __________________________________ If there were anyone on Earth that I'd like to meet, it'd be the thing under my bed, in my closet that screams, "No parties, my beasty, it's time to get sleepy because that's where I want you, and there you should stay." I can't sleep when you're howling, "Delightful, it's night" I can't take it, can't take it, Just take it away!" If I could meet anyone on this Earth, I say I'd like to meet someone to take this awful burden away. __________________________________ I've seen your demons They look quite like mine And when I get going I'll let you know If my heart starts to pound And you are not around I'll tell you I've found another And I'll start to bruise you More than I meant to And I'll start to push you Around Well, where are your demons You've asked me to kill? What do I do with this Let me know... And if my hands start to cramp And I haven't got to them I'll tell you Your demons still live I'll get past them To you And make you believe that I need this I need you Don't bleed here. __________________________________ You have my soul in your bag But i have nothing in hand I loathe myself for living this way And I've got blisters From walking with you in the Summer And covering you in the rain But it will never be the same... You've stolen my ever And thrown it to the birds And you take and take things back Like you never had said them at first... I could use some pins To help my brittle skin Stick to my fragile bones... And I could use a few good thoughts To get me home... But it will never be the same... __________________________________ Clouds encircle the sky And I'm at home In a house that isn't mine I've been Underwater all my life And I'm breathing air that isn't mine. __________________________________ The red ring, It chases itself as it waits For frames to catch up Second by second I'm learning to cope with impatience __________________________________

WOOHOO! Glad things went well for you!

I was dating someone and they told me that I've never really had the best luck. So I quoted them. I just sort of found the heart on photobucket. But as far as the phrase goes, it's just this gay-kid quote. (:

^^that's what my parents said too. but like i always say, no need to prove anything to anyone. they might not ever understand, but they'll come to terms with the facts.

kooks, metros, temper trap, black kids, bloc party, mgmt, arctic monkeys... all wonderful.

dang. well, good thing to get it out there (:

^i know, right?

^no problemo.

hmmm. childhood pictures. mom, the 90s were not good to your hair...

damn. kadi those are so pro-status. (:

well, i hope i helped some. (: best of luck.

good to go then! (: but yeah. i mean, the worst that happens is he says no, and you still get to keep a valuable friendship.

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i mean maria. since my name's mariah, i'm used to adding that darn "h" but yeah. i love them <333 so much.

ida maria as in "i like you so much better when yuo're naked! i like me so much better when you're naked!" ida mariah.

oh man bloc party is like... amazing. laura marling would count in my neck-of-the woods. same with rilo kiley. fine frenzy is a little less indie. but still awesome (:

i totally just realized that i give advice like that guy who builds things out of wood on PBS in the middle of the day. "or you can use a dovetail, that's my preference. but hey, everyone's different. nails and glue work nice as well."

well, my personal way of finding things out is to ask blatantly. then again, i'm a very straightforward person. most people aren't. one good way to go about it is to beat around the bush with it. drop subtly hints, or just come right out and be like "dude, i think you're awesome and i think we should go out some time" and just see where that takes you. another approach could be the "flirt aimlessly with people when you're with him and see if he gets jealous or asks about you or them and why you were flirting" approach. that one pretty much works a good 80% of the time. the only fullproof way though, is to just come right out and ask him if he likes you. the worst that happens is that he doesn't feel the same, and with time, things will pan out and you'll work your way to the next one. it's also my opinion that being "in love" with someone is something that needs a mutual return. like... i personally can not be in love with someone, unless i know they love me the same. but that's just me. everyone is different. but anyway, my point is, the best way to do it is to just ask him. google techniques too. google is good at that sort of stuff.

not anymore. errrr.... "River" by motel motel?

bah! gorgeous!

oh. and new young pony club.