Myheartisurs

From now on, you can’t tell lies, are you ready? okayy Think back eight months ago, were you single? yepp What do you carry with you at all times? my phone, ipod, plasters practically everything is just thrown into my bag Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged? Calem How are you feeling? Tired and a bit sad Is something wrong right now? There always is Are you mad at someone? Yepp Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? I probably will Are you jealous of someone right now? Yes :/ Do you have a piggy bank that’s actually shaped like a pig? Lol no What’s the last thing you put in your mouth? Lmao erm this pasta thingy What are you supposed to be doing right now? french coursework, mehhh Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Not that i can think of Could you handle a long distance relationship? Depends if i liked the person enough to try and make it last Could you cry right now? Yes Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? All the time Are you okay with the life you live? No, but there is nothing I can do to change it Did you enjoy your day today? it was ok, nothing special Do you have a Tattoo? not yet Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear? i would, I've been considering getting my lip done Did your last kiss take place on a bed? well the last meaningful one did :/ What was the last thing you spent money for? i bought a tub of B&J's cookie dough ice cream Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Ermm Kim yesterday morning Do you call it fall or autumn? Autumn When was the last time you had a real smile on your face? Ermm i dont know last night when i got a comment on fb Has a boy/girl ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend for you? no Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? At times i hate myself because i can't hate him When’s the last time you had a late night phone conversation? erm a couple of weeks ago Do you honestly believe that good things happen to those who wait? sometimes Do you want to see someone this very minute? yes Do you trust all of your friends? Not all, there are a select few Are you happy with the way things are going? mehh i guess Are you a forgiving person? At times i can be too forgiving Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace? Yepp Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Yeshh, many Describe how you feel about your life in the past month using one word: Unpredictable Would you like to go back and change any part of your life? Yes, but i don't think i would When will your next kiss be? Have no idea Where were you at midnight? In my room talking to Shannykins on msn Would you hug the last person you hugged again? Yepp Last person you saw other than your family? Lots of strangers in sainsburys Will tomorrow be better than today? Mehh probably not, its a sunday What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you drank? Diet coke What does your hair look like right now? needs washing :/ Is there a night you’d like to put on repeat, and live it forever? Yeahh, maybe not forever though Name a time you thought you were going to die? There's never been anything physically wrong with me, but over the past few years I've suffered a lot of emotional pain, and its hurt so much i felt like i could, should die Which of your friends lives closest to you? Erm Amy, Lucy or Joe

Dear Kim, I know how you feel and I know I put up with him too, but at least I defended myself when he hurt me and argued back. The old Kim wouldn't have stood for any of his shit, but you just let him walk all over you, I know its hard to let go of him because you want to talk to him and you don't want to be excluded from his life, because half the time I still feel like that with him. But I wish you could realize that your other friends, not just me want to help you through this. I know you're grateful that I can relate to you and that's why you find it easy to confide in me, but what he has done and is doing to you and me is wrong and it needs to stop and you can't, you shouldn't put up with it any longer. Love Your Best Friend xoxo

Even though you weren't there for me, I still felt secure, But now you're gone, I feel lost and alone. Sometimes i just wish, wish that there was someone who could relate to me. And as selfish as that may be, its hard when there's no one who understands. Never have so many tears of mine been shed, It's like I'm drowning in a state of despair. The pain, the guilt, and the regrets. Too unbearable for anyone else to comprehend. I'm sorry that I abandoned you when you needed me, but I was afraid. Of finding you cold, and breaking completely. But now my heart is broken, broken beyond repair.

Ghost of a good thing - Dashboard Confessional

I confess I'm annoyed by her stupidity :@

I confess drag me to hell is so bloody hilarious

I confesssss omg its Shannon, and she smells

I confess i think i should've of said no :/

I wish it wasn't this awkward :/

I confess i don't know what to do :/ and how is this fair on me???

Haha No, god it was sooo bloody weird :/ lol

I confess i'm a tad shocked :/

What day would you consider the best day of your life? Why? Hmm 1st july 09 that was a really good day. Do you listen to music simply for the melody or for the lyrics? both Is there a song out there that reminds you of a certain ex? No Are you addicted to anything dangerous? What exactly is that? Not anymore :/ Do you faint at the sight of blood? Have you always been like that? Nah, im fine actually Would you ever consider becomming a prostitute or stripper? No Where did you find the last survey you took/posted on Myspace? don't have myspace What is the most visited website on your Internet window? Facebook, cos im a very, very sad girl!! Do you like the daytime or the nighttime better? Why is this? night, i just get a buzzz and feel more awake What was the first horror movie you ever saw? How old were you? Bloody hell, I have no idea :/ Would you say you're too experianced or too unexperianced for your age? lol Do you normally like the dreams you have at night? Why? Never seem to remember them, except there was this one where i was being chased by a monkey, which was damn creepy Have you ever given up on someone completely before? Yeahh :/ What is the color of your favorite hoodie at the time being? Black actually i think all of them are Do you avoid the past of most people you meet? No, im there if they need me to be. Do you always try to make a good first impression with people? I try, don't always succeed :L What color is the door-facing in the room you're currently in? brown :/ How many windows are in the room you're in, if there are any? one Do you always voice your opinion to random people? not all the time, occasionally in bookstores lol Are you related to the person you last talked to on the telephone? Yepp, pain in the ass phones me all time Is your hair bad for getting static electricity in it, or not so much? sometimes Do you ever steal the small children's candy on Halloween? Haha no What is your favorite holiday of all-time? Why is this? Christmas, cos i get to see my family What is your favorite neon color? Ever buy nail polish that color? pink and yeppp remember being attacked by louis that day :/ Have you ever eaten a cotton ball before? What was it like? errm nope Do you actually like the cell phone you have, or not so much? Don't really mind What time is it where you are currently? 22.06 Has anyone ever gotten in your face completely bitching you out? Yess, stupid step sisters bitchy friend!! grrr i hate her soo much :@ Do you ever make your own personal surveys for enjoyment? nopee cba Do you hate people who 'tYpE lIkE tHiS?' It annoys me. Yess :/ Does it annoy you when people use too many emoticons when they're typing? Not bothered What kind of instant messaging system do you currently have? msn, slightly addicted :/ Have you ever peeled paint off of a building? Was it hard to do? No *raises eyebrow* When is the next time you'll hang out with a long-time friend? No idea Do you ever watch scary movies alone or are you too afraid to? Yeah, but i go on my laptop too, in case i need distracting :/ Has anyone ever mistaken you to be a member of the opposite sex? lol no Where is your favorite place to go to buy groceries? Why is this? Asdaaa Do you ever watch soap operas? Which ones are your favorite? No, becos i have a life Would you ever consider yourself over-dramatic? Omg yes Do you like to sing? Do you personally think you have a good singing voice? love to sing, but have a really bad voice Are you one of those creepers who is overly excited about Twilight? Loved the books, then the movie ruined it for me :/ How often do you text people? Who do you text the most? ermmm usually Hannah, my wifey lol and quite a lot Do you accept compliments easily, or not so much? Nopeee Have you ever gone hunting before? Do you think it's wrong? No and i don't intend to What do you do when you see a stray animal on the side of the road? I dunno, i guess probably nothing :/ What would you consider your second choice as a dream career? Directing Have you ever worn the same outfit two days in a row? yes Are you a fan of soft pretzels? Do you like them with a lot of salt? never had one What color is the last pop can you drank out of? ermm i dunno Has someone ever spied on you from outside a window before? hope not but probably considering what happened this summer :/ Have you ever prank called the cops? I wouldn't suggest it. No, but one of my friends did and we all got a bollocking for it Are you someone who always leaves the lights on in your room? No How many lamps are in your living room? What color are they? ermm 2 i think Do you usually like surveys with a lot of questions or not so much? dont mind What color is the chair you're currently sitting on? im sitting on my bed How often would you say your computer freezes up? never What is your favorite color? Are your bedroom walls this color? atm redd and nopee Do you ever listen to the band Death Cab For Cutie? sometimes Would you consider yourself more indie or mainstream? dunno? What is your favorite kind of soda? Do you call it soda or pop? Diet coke and pop What is one word you could never properly pronounce? hate it when i get asked this question cos i an never remember the words :/ Is there anyone you know who can never take a bad picture? yeah What is one game show you have the desire to be on or attend? none What color is your landline phone? Do you like this color? its silver and dont care Do you like to wear skirts? Do you prefer just denim or frilly fluffy ones? don't wear them much, but denim Has anyone ever told you that you must have ADHD? no How many iPods or mp3 players have you had in your entire life? ermmm well lemme think, 5 i think :/ Three of your favorite movies in the world: don't have favourites What does it smell like in the room you're currently in? can't smell anything really What is the longest amount of time you've played video games consecutively? bloody hell i dunno :/ Have you ever dated someone just because they put out? no Do you enjoy hugs or kisses more? Dont say both either. thats hard, but i guess hugs When was the last time you got mad and broke something? erm i dunno Do you have a laptop and a desktop or just one of those? laptop and me dad has one too so we're content Would you say you're good at persuading people into things? depends i guess Are you missing anyone at this moment in time? yeah :/ What day of the week is it? Is this your favorite day of the week? I hate mondays. I love fridays Do you ever use cheats when you play video games? occasionally What is a physical feature people compliment you on the most? ermm dunno What is your current ringtone? When did you first hear that song? Ermmm decoy, i think cos ive been listening to it a lot lately. But i wanna change it to inbetween day by the cure Would you consider yourself a creative person? Yeahhh Do you believe that a color can also have a certain smell? wth? When was the last time you fingerpainted with someone? god, i have no idea Would you rather it be summer right now, rather than fall? yeah, this summer was amazingg How many people are currently on your contact list in your phone? a lot Do you sometimes give people false hope? not sure, hope not Where is somewhere you're excited to go in the next few days? Nowhere :/ am going to see Hannah tomorrow though What color is your digital camera, if you have one? silver Have you ever attempted to take pictures as 'photography?' yepp Has anyone, besides yourself, considered you as a failure? probably When was the last time you took a picture with someone? yesterday What is your favorite day of the year? don't have one Does your family go 'all out' during the holidays? not really What do you think of people who flirt too much with too many people? its their life :/ What's your favorite kind of lunchmeat to put on a sandwich? chicken Do you get a lot of company at your house during the day? nope, there's never anyone in Would you consider yourself to be a very playful person? I can be Would you prefer cold or warm weather? warmm Do you enjoy being tickled, or does it ever make you angry? depends whos tickling me What color are your favorite pair of jeans? dark blue How often in a year do you go to the mall to get new clothes? whenever Honestly, do you think you're a good person? i try to be Who was the last person to call you beautiful? What was your reaction? hmm i can't remember :/ How many people do you know who are currently pregnant? one Do you like watching old home videos of yourself? nope When is a time when your whole family gets together and just hangs out? They don't When will you next see the person you love or are in love with? awkward question :/ Do you ever get paranoid about who your significant other hangs out with? no Are you someone who talks way too much for their health? Sometimes, depends what mood i'm in Do you make typos on the computer a lot? How often, actually? depends, cos sometimes i just can't type :/ What is your favorite international food? Why is it your favorite? hmmm, dunno :/ Do you eat fast food too much for your health, or not so much? not really, only if i go out for the day with friends occasionally What is the color of the shirt you're currently wearing? white How old are you and what is your birthday? 15 & 26th march Do you fully understand what it takes to be a best friend to someone? yeahh :/ Do you go to amusement parks a lot or not so much? nope, i don't like them much anywhoo

Yeahhh it really sucks :/ its not fair how they think its alright to mess with our heads!

I confess im sorta in the same situation, just a tad different :/

I don't mind the violence, I just think its reallly sick :/

- Thinks she really really likes him (: - Wishes she didn't still have feelings for other him :/ - I feel like having a killers moment and dancing around my bedroom like a loon - Wants to walk to Tesco's to buy two six packs of citrus five alive, mmmm - Thinks Saw is an awful, gross, stupid movie!!!!

I confesss i really don't like saw and don't wanna watch it and think the movies are gross and pointless but feels compelled tooo :/

I'm watching Saw now :/

I confess I hate her so much!!!

I confess Becky :/

I confess i should be there for her more

I confess im dancing quite insanely to Florence and the machine

Falling - Florence and the machine

Yeah and then Andrew kept trying to talk and get my attention and be all friendly after he told me to fuck off last night, for no reason