Dave34

Anytime I try to talk to someone about how I feel/why I feel that way I get way too emotional so I just go to my room and deal with it myself.

Amused.

I hope Monday doesn't suck as hard as today.

Bowling, lots of fun.

10:20

I've been better.

I wonder if I have a mental disorder...

I've come to the conclusion that rooting for the teams playing against Florida in college football can only lead to incredible disappointment.

I confess that even though by definition sabotaging my progression as a person is bad, I often laugh at the various ways I find to do it.

Good god you're coming up with reasons Good god you're dragging it out Good god it's the changing of the seasons I feel so raped, so follow me down

Should Be Loved - Blue October

Streetlights - Ludo

That took longer than I expected. —YOUR BOY SIDE—- [ ] You love hoodies. [ ] You love jeans. [ ] Dogs are better than cats. [x] It’s hilarious when people get hurt. [x] Shopping is torture [ ] Sad movies suck. (well they do in a sense that I cry like a girl, lol) [x] You own a car racing game. [x] You played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid. [ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter. [x] You owned a DS, PS2, N64,or Sega. [x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. (When I was in elementary school) [x] You have watched sports on TV [ ] Gory movies are cool. [ ] You go to your dad for advice. [ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps. [ ] You used to collect hockey cards. [ ] Baggy sweats are cool to wear. [x] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. [x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. [ ] You love to go crazy and not care what people think. [x] Sports are fun [ ] You talk with food in your mouth. [ ] You sleep with your socks on at night. [x] You have fished at least once —-YOUR GIRL SIDE—- [ ] You love to shop. [ ] You wear eyeliner [ ] You wear the color pink. [ ] You go to your mum to talk. [ ] You consider cheerleading a sport. [ ] You hate wearing the color black. [ ] You like going to the mall. [ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures [ ] You like wearing jewelry. [ ] You cried watching The Notebook. [ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. [ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies. [x] You don’t like the movie Star Wars [ ] You are/were in gymnastics [ ] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up [ ] You smile a lot more than you should. [ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. [x] You care about what you look like. [ ] You like wearing dresses when you can. [ ] You like wearing high heel shoes. [ ] You used to play with dolls as little kid. [ ] You like putting make-up on others. [ ] You like being the star of everything. [ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors. Appearance • [ ] I have many scars. [ ] I tan easily. [x] I wish my hair was a different colour. [ ]I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour. [ ] I have a tattoo. [x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. [ ] I’ve had/have braces. [ ] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. [ ] I have more than two piercings. [ ] I have / had piercings in places besides my ears. • Embarrassment • [ ] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation. [ ] Disney movies still make me cry. [x] I’ve snorted while laughing. [x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. [x] I’ve glued my hand to something. [ ] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose. [ ] I’ve had my pants rip in public. • Health • [ ] I’ve gotten stitches. [ ] Broken a bone. [ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed. [ ] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend. [ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed. [ ] I’ve had serious surgery. [x] I’ve had chicken pox. • Traveling • [x] I’ve driven / riden over 200 miles in one day. [ ] I’ve been on a plane. [x] I’ve been to Canada. [ ] I’ve been to Cuba. [ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls. [ ] I’ve been to Ottawa. [ ] I’ve gone to Sudbury. [ ] I’ve been to the Caribbean. [ ] I’ve been to Europe. • Experiences • [x] I’ve gotten lost in my city. [ ] I’ve seen a shooting star. [ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star. [ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower. [ ] I’ve gone out in public in my pyjamas. [x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. [ ] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts. [x] I’ve been to a casino. [ ] I’ve been skydiving. [ ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping. [ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [ ] I’ve crashed a car. [ ] I’ve been skiing. [x] I’ve been in a musical. (I sang in 8th grade choir) [x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue. [ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights. [ ] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night. [ ] I’ve played a prank on someone. [ ] I’ve ridden in a taxi. [ ] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [ ] I’ve eaten Sushi. [ ] I’ve been snowboarding. • Relationships • [x] I’m single. [ ] I’m in a relationship. [ ] I’m engaged. [ ] I’m married. [x] I miss someone right now. [ ] I’ve gotten divorced. [ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. [x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. • Honesty / Crime • [x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t. [ ] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. [ ] I’ve snuck out. [ ] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am. [x] I’ve cheated while playing a game. [ ] I’ve ran a red light. [ ] I’ve witnessed a crime. [ ] I’ve been in a fist fight. [ ] I’ve been arrested. • Materialism • [ ] I own over 5 rap CD’s. [ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga. [ ]I own designer bags, costing over $100 a piece. [ ] I own something from Pac Sun. [ ] I collected comic books. [ ] I own something I got on E-Bay. • Random • [ ] I can sing well [ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. [ ] I open up to others easily [ ] I watch the news. [ ] I don’t kill bugs [ ] I sing in the shower. [x] I am a morning person. [x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. [x] I am a sports fanatic. (Football yeah ) [ ] I twirl my hair. [x] I care about grammar. [ ] I have “?”’s in my screen name. [ ] I love spam. [ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day. [ ] I bake well. [ ] My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange. [ ] I would wear pyjamas to school. hell yeah haha [ ] I like Martha Stewart. [ ] I know how to shoot a gun. [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. those days are long gone [x] I laugh at my own jokes [x] I eat fast food weekly. [x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. (gym) [ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room. [ ] I am really ticklish. [ ] I like white chocolate. [x] I bite my nails. [x] I’m good at remembering faces. [x] I’m good at remembering names. [x] I’m good at remembering dates. [x] honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [x] All my answers were totally honest

Relaxed

Dear Dave; I both love and hate how you make everything so awkward. I would appreciate it if you acquired some confidence and/or ability to talk to people in the future. Your best pal, -Dave

Headstrong - Trapt

1) noticed a girl at work I have a crush on changed her hair color 2) spent 15 awkward minutes in the as the only 2 people in the break room and said nothing to each other 3) spent the rest of the day hating myself/laughing at how incredibly awkward that was

Grand Theft Autumn/Where Is Your Boy - Fall Out Boy

The only songs on the album I don't love are California/Pimpin'/No Other Place. For me they kind of just blur into each other and are forgettable. I think I missed the last time they were around here, got to make sure I make it to the next show.

- Went to work, then went to gym - Pigged out on Pizza - Hated myself for a while (due to #2, obviously) Normal.

Super old thread bump again. I can't stop listening to "Sell Your Soul", the lead in gets me for some reason.

I'm gonna do the first survey from the topic, if there are others I'll do them later: 1. What is your current mood? Self-loathing. 2. Is your family multi-racial? No 3. Is America truly “the land of the free?” I dunno, but I like living here. 4. How much do you care about your appearance? I hate my appearance, and it's the main cause of why I'm so nervous and come off as anti-social. 5. Do you have a favorite period in history that you love to study? I liked studying our civil war, as the dynamic of half of our country saying "**** you" to the government and de-unionizing makes me laugh. 6. What are your favorite kinds of jokes? I'm not sure. 7. Do you make to-do lists? No, but I should. 8. If you’re quiet for an extended period of time, what does it most likely mean? That I'm too nervous to talk to anyone around me. 9. Could you date a smoker? Yeah, even though I don't smoke. 10. What’s your ideal job (not career, just something that pays the bills but is still enjoyable? Professional bowler, but I'm terrible. 11. Where is your favorite place to hang out besides your house? My work, as stupid as that sounds I love talking to some of my coworkers. 12. What is a song that truly changed your life? I don't think that's ever really happened, but there were a few songs that got me out of a pretty deep depression when I was younger. 13. Do you remember the day you got your first signed up to PF? Yeah, two days after I saw the "That's What You Get" video. 14. What is one food you despise? Shrimp. 15. What are your opinions on open/multi-partner relationships? I think it would crush me emotionally if the love of my life was going with someone else. 16. Could you care for a terminally ill person? In theory, since we are all slowly dying, aren't we all terminally ill? However, to answer the actual question, yes if I loved them. 17. Do you drop your cell phone frequently? No. 18. Name a TV show you could watch over and over on DVD. Scrubs 19. What brand and flavor toothpaste do you use? Colgate Extra Whitening 20. What are your favorite kinds of books to read? I don't read much.

I would like to say I'm less of an a-hole now, but I might just be lying to myself more/more effectively. I'm making progress towards liking myself, but at least once a week I wish I was completely different.

I hope tomorrow isn't awkward.

Yeah, I managed to **** that up again.