MissHannahRAWR

Top 5 foods 5. Flame grilled steak crisps 4. Ritz crackers w/ butter 3. Strawberries 2. Chocolate 1. Chicken flavour noodles

haha you shoulda seen my a-level maths test on Monday... 24 out of 75... 32% got a U haha. lucky it's only practise. mocks next monday and actual thing on January 10th. so do i... all i want atm is to be able to meet up with him to talk things over. but he won't answer my texts or calls... =/ xxx

I love making new friends. Talk to me!! =D

I hate how my ex thinks he can walk back into my life after being a dick to me for months and say he still cares. Then one day he's on about wanting me back, the next day he is constantly going on about wanting me for sexual stuff, the next day saying he LOVES me but at the same time LOVES the girl who just broke up with him who happens to be one of my friends, then the next day saying it was a big joke on me. Then a few days later when i was staying at a friends house (another of his exes) he starts flirting with us both, getting info out of me and then saying to her that it was another joke on me, then he asks me to call him so i do and he's all saying he really cares about me and loves me and all i could say is how can i trust you and then i hung up on him. i text him a really long message and he text back then i text back and now we're not talking. But now i can't get him out of my head. He walks out of my life, acts like a dick, walks back in, jokes around, walks back out. I mean that's confusing enough. But the i love you, it's a joke, i love you, it's a joke, i love you thing has just screwed me up. I honestly haven't been able to think straight all week. And it's put me in such a bad mood that i'm snapping at everyone and i hate myself for it and for trusting him... Grrrrrrrrrrrrr

I don't care who knows this but still... I went out with a guy at the beginning of this year and we broke up for reasons and haven't talked for months cos he's been a complete d*** to me. The other say he started texting me and saying he's still in love with me. When i asked him whether it was just a joke or not he said he meant it and then a few mins later he said he didn't know cos his gf that he'd just broken up with had called asking for him back. He was saying he wished he could be with both me and her or with me in secret but the girl he was with was one of my close friends. And it's sooooo confusing. And i just wish i knew what was happening cos he's not replying to my texts anymore...

haha ennit! we go through all the pain for THEM and what do they do?? they hold our hands... thanks, lol

My maths teacher just called asking where i'd been the past 2 1/2 weeks. I've only missed 2 lessons which were this week... I mean if he's gunna do the register he should do it right!!

haha. wooo for the 5'2"ness!!! i'm the same =D

oooooooh cookies! i had millies cookies today =D and i'm having them Thursday at a girly sleepover hehe

lol i can't even ollie! got on a board 2 years ago and still can't. my board has just sat in my room for the past aaaaaaaaaages. can't even remember when i was last on one, lol

i'll come see you one day soooooooooooon =D just like appear on your doorstep and be like " *POP*" haha =P

One day i will come to the US to meet some of you and you'll get to meet the wonders of me hahahahahahaha!!

haha... you sound like you've met me already... =P if you ever meet me you'll be laughing for a loooooooooong time as i'll most likely be PROPER HYPER. i'm not really a weird obsessor tho. i just have a strong fascination with stuff haha.

i also have to say that because of guys i've given up on relationships with guys and am sooooo glad that i'm actually bi cos it means i can live without them, thank goodness!

ooooooh nice. wish i could actually board, haha. trick wise i mean =P

Blue skinnies, brown top and the metallica hoodie chris gave me when he came down to Reading to see me today =D

guys = bikes/cars bikes/cars = LOTS of money girls = shoes and make-up shoes and make-up = not as much as cars and bikes haha =P therefore girls>boys haha! beat that guys!

ouch man!! have you ever slid down a quarter pipe onto rough concrete and sliced open your jeans and leg at the same time?? gotta say it proper canes for a while, lol. you have good air tho =P

i'm sorry but i have to say this..... PHITT!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so much better after saying that... =P

Idannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!! Don't leave meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! *hugs and doesn't let go* Hope everything goes okay, good luck with everything =)

wowness!! that's actually amazing!

I'm going to both Brixton gigs =D gunna be well amazing!! Already going hyper most days thinking about it!! hehe

oh okies. nvm

lol *puts on Paramore in the front room* Mum - *silence* Sis - Urgh it's them... Dad - Turn that raquet down *turns it off* haha, that's about the reaction i get for every type of music in this housee =P

Ok... here's my life... I was born Hannah Sian Crozier on May 17th 1991. Not named after anyone famous or anything, just a name. My older sis (by 1 year 7 months, 11 days and 5 mins) always had all the attention. There's vids of her being born and through childhood, but yet just about nothing of me. I was a mummy and daddy's girl, always doing the right thing. Had a best friend who lived over the road, everything was fine til i reached Primary School. Me and my best friend Sophie both went to our local primary school and everything was fun for a few years. We both behaved and did all our work. Then everyone started wanting to be friends with Sophie, but because she was always with me i started getting bullied all the time. So i'd spend my breaks and lunches alone. Sometimes Sophie would come spend time with me but someone would always come get in the way and i'd end in tears. I couldn't talk to my parents about this cos they were never around much. I had a childminder who lived on a nearby farm. She had 2 boys and looked after me, my sis and a few other children. I hated things there as well. I used to sit upstairs with the 2 boys playing nintendo racing games and their eldest son (year older than me) started saying the winner had to make the loser do a dare. We used to play it all the time but one year when i was in about Year 4 i lost and the eldest son won. So he asked his lil bro to leave the room and shut the door. He kept asking me to touch him and touching me and such and cos of child rules you had to go through with dares... as much as i hated it. So many problems came from that place... while i was in year 6 i used to have both their sons and my sis all bullying me. I'd end up in tears cos i don't have the mental wall that stop emotions from pouring out... and of course my childminder and my mum would have a go at me for being silly. Plus at school i still didn't have friends and the people who bullied me for being friends with Sophie started bullying me for other things as well. The teachers did nothing about it and i just went into my own world. It got to a point where i cried every day. And still i couldn't talk to my parents about anything. Managed to get through my SAT's with straight 5's tho =D Next i moved onto Secondary School. Thought it'd be different but tbh it was worse. My parents still worked late but this time i didn't have to be at my childminders. Nobody wanted to be friends with me so i settled down and did my work and was forever after that known as the Boffin/Bof/Teachers Pet/ect. After a while i managed to get a small group of friends and after a while one of the girls started hating me so i got pushed out of the group. Everyone in my year thought i was desparate for friends cos for my birthday that year my dad booked out our village hall for my birthday without me asking and told me i had to invite more than 20 ppl, of course i only had like 5 friends so i invited my sis' friends and some people from my year. I got through years 7, 8 and 9 with help from teachers and when i started skateboarding in year 9 i made friends with some skaters from school and everything seemed fine. Got a 6, 7 and 8 in my SAT's. Then i reached year 10... At the beginning of the year i was happy and in mid-September i was invited to my friend's party. Stuff happened there that i really don't wanna talk about and people started saying i said something about this guy which i know i didn't. Just so happened that his mum was dying in hospital so everyone sided with him and started hating me. Around the same time i went out with this guy for a day and after that he kept saying he loved me and couldn't live without me and all that jazz. Because i didn't feel the same he started self-harming and made sure i knew it was cos of me. I even had to watch him cut my initials into his arm in the middle of maths class. He made my life hell, he would show me all his scars and tell me it was because of me, he'd get his friends to tell me that he'd cut himself last night because of me, he'd get MY friends to tell me that he'd cut because of me. I couldn't escape it all so i caved into depression and ended up cutting as well. Soon i started going out with a guy called Sam and everything got better, he got this guy to leave me alone and gave me hugs and kisses to make me happy. But after a while he started paying me no attention and either talking to his friends or playing guitar. I lasted 4 months in that relationship before giving up. Still to this day my longest relationship. But anyway. I got my way through the rest of year 10 single, a few friends and verging on happy being around them. That summer i went out with one of the people who was nice enough to be my friend. We went down by the river in caversham, somewhere my dad used to take me to take pics of me and my sis under the willow trees =D and there i met a load of really nice people and soon became close to some and kept going every Saturday and some week days. Then i went into year 11 and got through that. Would still go to town every Saturday to see friends tho. Because some of those went to my school and knew about the rumours they started spreading similar ones about different people to make me look bad cos they didn't like me and they pushed me away to a point where i'd come to town to see friends but they'd make things hell. Ended up getting a weekend job so i didn't have to see them. But still more rumours came through even though i didn't talk to anyone or see anyone. It got to a point where people started calling my house phone at 2 in the morning to tell my parents lies so i'd get into trouble. I hadn't self-harmed for about a year and ended up starting again. Got to the end of year 11 with a group of loyal friends whom i love muchly and passed all my GCSE's!! (1.5 A's, 6 B's and 2 C's). Now i'm at a sixth form academy at College which is pretty cool. Made loads of friends there and even though half of them found out about rumours and such cos some people who know them go to College and hate me already i honestly don't care cos there's a load of people by my side who are staying with me through it. Some people are trying to turn my friends against me and some are succeeding but in the end i'm finding out who my true friends are and i'm glad i know cos i tell secrets too easily and when they get out it's not good... So yeah. I still can't talk to my parents, my childminders son was my boss for a while at the job i have now and was trying to get together with me not so long ago, i still talk to Sophie even tho she's moved away. And no matter how down i've been feeling lately i know that there's people here for me even if it's not anyone who can do anything about it. wow.... i actually go on.... and that's hardly anything of what i coulda said... i sound like such a drama queen, haha