SuperJess Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 Current location: LA - hotel. Current mood: relieved Entry tags: jesus christ, paramore, redemption, riot! redemption. it's a long story. re-demp-tion |riˈdemp sh ən| noun 1. the action of saving or being saved from sin, error, or evil : God's plans for the redemption of his world. there is something that has been on my mind for a while, now, pertaining the song, "Misery Business". i haven't really known what to say about it or how to say it... but honestly, after talking to the guys about it, we feel like what's important is that we try. (whether it sounds "cool" or not). it might get a little personal but here goes nothing. (in a week or so, i'm going to take this next paragraph down... so read up while you can, if you like details). "Misery Business", like we've explained before in interviews - and even in past LJ posts - is a true story. the song was written at a time in my life that i felt very bitter towards a girl, who i still haven't forgiven, for a lot of things that she did a few years ago. until this person came into mine and my friend's lives, i had no idea what power someone could have over another. i watched her use sex to manipulate one of my friends, in particular, to the point that none of us - in our little circle of friends - recognized him. he went from being someone so innocent and joyful to becoming someone who was shut off from everything. needless to say, it hurt. not only because he was a close friend but because i felt that i was in love with him. (i know, you can't be in love when you're this young.. right? whatever). either way... the pain that i felt, i decided to hold inside. i thought that if people knew how hurt, angry and bitter i'd become, they'd think i was a bad - or worse, a weak - person because of it. (now, to keep this from getting any longer or any more personal, i'll finish this part of the story by saying... he eventually decided that the relationship had nothing to do with love and after that discovered that our friendship was becoming something different. we sorta fought it for a while because we figured it wasn't smart to start dating so young, especially after what all had happened, but fighting it just made it harder and the next thing i knew, we were an item. (no one uses that term anymore, really...) i can remember exactly where i was and what everything looked like around me when i was writing the lyrics. i forced myself to relive some of the very vivid memories that i have of the times he dated her. i don't think anyone can understand how awkwardly dark those times were at such a young age. but i do. to finally explain my side of the story and feel freed of it all... well, i was so angry and so happy at the same time. every word i wrote was like a thousand weights lifted off my shoulders. no more burden. what i didn't realize, as i wrote some of those lines, was that while i was escaping one burden, i was also giving myself another. "but god does it feel so good... to steal it all away from you now. and if you could then you know you would. cause god it just feels so... it just feels so good." i'm ashamed to say that, although i'm a believer in Jesus Christ and i claim him as my God, when i wrote those lyrics i wasn't addressing him. i was using his name casually. in vain, to be blunt. if you know much about the Christian religion (which i'm not too fond of addressing my faith as), you'll probably know that one of the ten commandments is "Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord your God in vain"... it goes on to say, "...for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes his name in vain." As a believer in Christ, that last part scares the hell out of me. i don't want to be held accountable for being the cause of so many people using his name in vain. you don't have to believe in what i believe and no one in Paramore is ever going to go around forcing our faith into people's lives... but believer or not, i might have led some of ya'll to believe that i take my saviour lightly. and i don't. God brought me through everything that i say in "Misery Business". i believe that i am a stronger person because those things happened in my life. through that situation, i learned so much. when i sing that song now, i'm not the same person i was when i wrote it. when i sing those lines that i used to sing in vain, i mean them in a different way. i don't want to opportunity to be held responsible for causing a lot of people to use my God's name in vain. so, whether or you not you believe in Christ. whether or not you care if it means something when you say God. just know that as for me, when I am singing those lines, i'm telling God that it feels good to stand up for myself and be victorious after long months of confusion and pain. i don't hurt the same way anymore. sorry this was so long winded. i know we don't usually speak out about our faith. mostly, because our faith is personal to us. but i really felt like i needed to say something, before it was too late. thanks for reading. the guys aren't responsible for whatever mess this post could possibly get us into, hayley Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShapeShifter Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 Wow. Very interesting and imformative read. It's a shame we live in times where Hayley has to fear a backlash for simply speaking out about her faith. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SuperJess Posted June 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 My thoughts exactly. You would think that as humans evolved we would become more accepting but it seems we are only becoming more judgemental. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beforethedawn Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 wow. only word I can say. wow. that was incredibly personal, don't think I could ever have put those feelings down on paper if it were me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
thegreenmansaid Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 *sigh* Hayley is my hero. I was actually listening to Msery Business a couple days ago, and my brother walks in and hears the bit where she says 'but God it feels so good' and tell me not to listen to Paramore anymore because they use the lord's name in vain. I've been wondering whether or not she did it on purpose to make it seem more dramatic, or if she used it without thinking that she was using His name in vain, and this really clears it all up. As for the whole 'backlash for speaking up about her faith' thing that ShapeShifter mentioned, it can't be helped. Its even been going on here, and so I'm really happy that Hayley decided to write that lj entry...its making me respect her so much more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sincerely_ Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 It's a shame we live in times where Hayley has to fear a backlash for simply speaking out about her faith. yeah i was amazed that she actually outright said all of the religious stuff. definitely the best LJ post (by ANYONE) i've ever read. my respect for Hayley is even greater than it was before, as i said in my comment. hahah. i kinda felt like a dork for my comment, but i was like NO! I'M POSTING IT. i'm weird. but yeah. Hayley has great character and she's just a great person. end of story. i'm gonna stand by that forever. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
clowdiaa Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 honestly, i dunno how she wrote that, for all of us to read. i couldnt say things like that to some of my friends, let alone write it for anyone to read. she really is an amazing person. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SuperJess Posted June 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 yeah i was amazed that she actually outright said all of the religious stuff.definitely the best LJ post (by ANYONE) i've ever read. my respect for Hayley is even greater than it was before, as i said in my comment. hahah. i kinda felt like a dork for my comment, but i was like NO! I'M POSTING IT. i'm weird. but yeah. Hayley has great character and she's just a great person. end of story. i'm gonna stand by that forever. That's not dorky at all! I commented with a verse from the bible that I use as a reminder to be truthful each day, because I know everybody has a hard time being brave enough to be honest, so I thought it fit well. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
neverment2brag Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 ah wow! that was so personal. but maybe like..she haaad to do it. maybe she was scared like, some fans would like start hating the band cuz of the word God? i dont know really, i aint really that religious but i DO beleive in god and i DO pray and all that. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Catie Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 wow!! that was really personal. it was a great enrty though itd have to say prob my fav. and i think its great how she can let it all out and tell us about it. =] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crush Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 that was powerful, deep and a pretty big confession to the fans, something i would never be able to do. i admire her for letting us know how she felt! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xFueledByParamorex Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 the live journal entry rocked cause hayley is an amazing women of God!!! no one should be ashamed of talking about about there faith and if someone hate ur band cause u talk about ur faith then there not true fans 1 more thing also everyone knows paramore are christians so it wouldnt be a shock if they said stuff about christianity edit: Please use the edit button thank you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roxchick93 Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 wow. hayley is amasing. i replied too it. i luv how sh eis so honest Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ive seen love die_ Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 Holy crap that was intense. Gotta let that soak for awhile. Dang. I don't even know what to say or think. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xFueledByParamorex Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 yeah but it was amazing that she opened up and shared her faith!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ive seen love die_ Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 yeah but it was amazing that she opened up and shared her faith!!! Dude that wasn't the only amazing thing about it. We get that you liked it, alright? Not everyone believes in God and not everyone took this entry to heart because she opened up about her faith. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
microwave37 Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 i don't even know what to say. that had to be hard to write out, knowing everyone is gonna know everything about that song. && i'm glad she cleared up that lyric. i found it kinda weird when i first heard the song, && i'm glad she's comfortable with it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xFueledByParamorex Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 well paramore are christians and that all that matters cause there the coolest lol jk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
liarsxgoxtoxhell Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 wow i love this journal update Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kerrie Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 it would be weird to sing it "BUT GOSH DOES IT FEEL SO GOOD" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fire At Will Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 I liked this entry.It's good of her to open up even though I mean I think most of us interpreted the song for what it is already.The whole faith thing too, it's good she explained it. And I agree with Kerrie,"gosh" just doesn't have the same effect haha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stephy Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 Whoa, I woulden't have had the guts to type that if I was her.. What she said about the Misery Business lyrics.. ack I dno.. it just kinda made me think. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sofa9053 Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 So this is basically the most amazing thing anyone could ever say to their fans. Not only is Hayley an amazing musician but she's also an amazing person and this shows how much trust she puts in her fans. It is just amazing! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Monika Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 I loved reading everyones replies to the post. Paramore have some of the best fans in the world, seriously. After i read this, this morning... I was speechless. Best LJ post. I love that she was so open with us and im amazed at how strong and brave she is for writing all that out. I just hope this post doesn't backfire on her. I'm hoping she deletes it sooner just in case. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Stephy Posted June 28, 2007 Report Share Posted June 28, 2007 I just hope this post doesn't backfire on her. I'm hoping she deletes it sooner just in case. haha, I instantly though 'kerrang' But yeah, if it backfires that won't be too good! I don't think theres really anything in there that you can use against them/her anyways, is there? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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